Its Complicated

I tell myself I've to let him go. Mustn't think about him. but somehow the feelings come rushing back automatically. So much of convincing myself! -.-

Yesterday, we crossed paths and I turned to look at other direction. Pretended like he didn't exist but as soon we crossed I turned to look at him. He was gone. And I was hyper again. Phew!
Today, omg, he was so close. I was so tempted to glance sideways to look at him, smile and say hello but my pride stopped me. Owh yeah my pride. So once again, pretended he didn't exist.

Yeah,really felt like doing it!

Why? Because I feel like I have to prove to him that I'm stronger than he thinks I am. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him!!! Not for leaving but for certain other reasons. Ya I HATE him!

Knock your head real hard, to get your senses working!!!

He must have thought I'm mean or something but oh well only I know how it feels to do so and I like to keep it that way.

I won't let it!

My friends,well they aren't much help. They constantly remind me of him.I told them I'm over and done but they just don't believe me. What do they expect me to say;

"YES, I STILL LOVE HIM.VERY MUCH."

No way I'm ever gonna admit that in front of them. NO!

In class

Eunice: What happened to you and him?

Me: *no response

Eunice: Tell lar what happened'

Me: Shush! Read your Geo textbook and lemme do my PJ notes.

Eunice: -.-

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Eunice: Wow, so fast you got over him! How ah? *grins*

Me: *silent...It just happened!

Eunice: How?

Me: Dunno

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Science Lab
-We talked a lot of stuffs but I don't really remember them except for this

Eunice: You still like him!!

Me: *straight face* No I don't!

Eunice: Yes you do!

Me: No I don't!

Eunice: Ya, deep inside your heart,you do. Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep inside! *drew example on my textbook*

Me: No