Empty.

Mood: Normal ny

F*ck! He liked that slut's status! I mean, he liked all of em, idiote, but that stupid perasanted one?! Seriously?! -.-  

Lost my voice. Yesh! Throat has a wound, an old one, so it bled a bit. Ouch! It still hurts.
Therefore, drama was not that fun. Me sad sad most of the time. :(

Loveee my hair! XD
The wind kept ruining it anyways and ew me no likey wearing clips to pin it. No! No! No!

Epic convo with Kirthana! .____.

Mommy got me a pearl necklace. I wonder what got into her. Hmmph! Watever. It's beautiful. =')

What Can I Say?

Mood: Neutral

Whee! Salam Namaste. So it's almost 10 and I'm sleepy so gonna try to make this short.
Monday: Shitty

Tuesday: Boleh tahan, 1M1S was super fun and so was drama! Wheee! Had a lil fight with a friend but everything's fine now. Lazy to type more so ok watever.

Today, too much of gossips. Hehehe! >:) Our drama performance in front of 1 Ixo was kinda messed up but who cares. Crap tomorrow, the 5Ixo's gonna come. Did some weird Pandu activities with Shantini to help her get the AIDS badge. Fun much. I kissed Sinthiya! XD Stayed back till for 4. Haiz.

Went for a haircut. Boy cut!! Rawr! Ok, of course not. Just cut shorter! :D Comments?! Definitely received a bunch of em'. Positive or negative?! 50/50! :P Now very susah to tie la. Pochii! D:

He looks kinda good with that Prefect's Corporate shirt. XD They said I gt no.16 in class but peh dont believe it and my aliran sucks! .____. 

Only Dreamers Can Dream

Mood: Neutral

Totally forgot to mention on my last post about the dream I had. No, it was a nightmare, no,  dream, no, both!
Scary much. It had no ending cause I waited so long for a response and didn't get one, so woke up from the dream feeling so terrified, tensed and sad. How I wish, it was for real. ='(

And another weird dream today. At least it was fun! XD

Craaapppp! School tomorrow! Don't want!! D:
Eh wait, Drama practice! Wheeeee! :D
Gotta sit at the back tomorrow. Walao eh!

Zer0 Achieved

Mood: Sleepy

Just realized it's 11:30pm. Time flies so fast. .____.

Just another normal day. Boring as usual. Hmmph!
Bought new shoes. Exciting now?! XD

Ok. Nitez. :O

The Flavour Of Pain

Mood: Mixed Emotions

So, it was a pretty good day yesterday. Bullied Kuga at tuition. Done.

Today, super hectic. 

Played Dirty Truth or Dare in class with Yoga, Roselyn, Laayknath and Aina. Get what I mean by 'dirty' ?! XD

Stayed back till 4 for absolute nothing. Yup, I rock! 

Mega epic moment when he passed by us while we practiced 'something'. Still can't believe how the timing was so accurate. I wonder if he heard what Kamz said. Hmmm. XD

Went totally mad.

Ate Eileen smth's birthday cake. Happy Birthday Eileen! I hardly know you! XD

Was with Kuga and Kelvine.

Played Truth or Dare again. Whacked Kuga so many times for asking me that one question. I didn't mind that she asked the question cause I was already asked in the previous game but the fact that she asked it in front of Kelvine was the one that made me so pissed. I told her earlier itself when she asked him to follow me go make a call, I had some issues with him. Which part of issues didn't she understand?! Another reason added to why I prefer Kamz more to Kuga these days, is that Kamz wouldn't have done that and even if she did, she would have at least understood how I felt later on, Kuga didn't, she dared to ask what was wrong with me all of a sudden some more when I didn't talk. Seriously Kuga, thanks a lot. 

Then the topic was about Kelvine and Aly thingy that I had no idea about so the whole conversation was between Kuga and Kelvine. I understand that he has problems and I respect his feelings and that was why I didn't walk off from them at that moment when Kelvine said, he talks about this stuffs all only to Kuga, only I knew how left out I felt. He was stating his problems and I didn't wanna be rude by just leaving when he was talking, so I sat there like an idiot, pretending to be invisible. Awesome feeling you know!

It's funny how we feel so much but we don't say a word. We're screaming inside but we can't be heard.

And Kuga actually asked what was wrong with me only after Kelvine left, before that nothing and after he came back, nothing again. Back to their convo. Imagine how it was just sitting there, being ignored but then noticed once in a while and you had to act like you're dumb and dont give a damn. The part when Kelvine asked what time my dad was coming was my chance to just go away, didn't answer him just said bye and went off. Phew! Finally! 

I didn't talk to Kuga not cause I was angry. Ok wait, I was pissed off. No, I still am. We all get angry for some reasons and some people should understand that. Just because you notice everyone's angry with you, doesn't mean you can put the blame on them for being angry, it was smth you said or did that caused the anger so realize what your mistakes were and how to fix them instead of continuously stating everyone's angry with you. =='

Disappointed too. She knows I get irritated when that topic comes and she actually asked that fucking question?! Unbelievable! I didn't wanna talk cause I didn't wanna say anything that I would regret later on. 

As the saying goes 'Don't say anything if you have nothing nice to say."

Reached home around 8. Yes, 8pm. Been in my school uniform for more than 12 hours. ._.

A Shout Into The Void

Mood: Going crazy thanks to the not so nice memories of today! 

Tumblr! Tumblr! Tumblr!
Just reblogged tons of pictures. Hah! Expressed much! :)

Fuck! Kena vaade so many times today and the memories of em are taunting me now! :(

Last 5 periods, no teacher, interesting much.
4A's, 3B's and 1 freaking C! ==' *facepalm*
Geography, you ruined it! D:
The depressing moment when you find out you get a fucking B for your BM and it's on the border line. 65%! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!! Totally flunked my BM la! And ergh, classmates were like so shocked also cause they expected me to get much better result. And Puvee got the highest. Dafuq?! :O

First time getting B for BM, and that also border. I'm so heartbroken. I mean, how the fuck I got A for Maths and a dumb shit B for BM?! Fuck logic! Seriously. >:(

The epic moment when you get unexpected results on subjects that you thought you did terribly. *pokerface*

39 of them got straight A's! Wohooo! And the rest of them did try their best but oh well.

Rose Of A Day

Mood: Good

Pickaboo! 

Results have been really shocking. *pokerface*
T crush is awesome. LOL!
SPM results tomorrow, all the best to him and the rest. :)

1M1S was super fun. Shin Hau joined our craziness. Wheee! Created our own game of badminton. Epic. Kuga lost to Kirro and had to run one whole round around the place we played. Charath lost to me and had to go up the stairs and touch the staff room back door 5 times and punishment from me, chicken dance and the best part, he ended it with a butt roll.

Reality sucks?! Well it's been nice to me these past few days. Thank you. =')

Nighty nitez. *yawns* 

School?! No Thank You!

Mood: Blur

Had a great time yesterday and today. Bro came. Wheee! Supah fun! Now I'm sad, he's gone back! :(

Damn, school is reopening in another few hours. I duwaaaaaannnn! D:
Yeah the beginning of the holidays I was like WTH school holidays, I'm bored to death and it's the opposite now. Ergh!

I haven't ironed my shoes, polished my uniform, wash my bag.
Pochiiii!
Gotta get that lifeless part of me back to face the same old dramarama at school. Haiz.
And tomorrow results! Aiyerr seni! Fuuuuuuuuuuuu! >:(

Onion Mood! XD

Mood: Mixture of emotions

Ok just made a wish at 11:11 !

Had a scarily awesome dream this morning.
My dreams are getting out of control. They're bizarre everyday.

Hmm...my day went well. Been smiling like a retard the whole time, seriously no stopping. That's how mad I am.

Kuga's stupidity and the thought of that bitch Jayshri still breathing at this current moment is annoying me.
And oh my God, I gotta go hit bed now, gotta wake up early and go for Drama practice tomorrow. Damn! ><

Pop.

Mood: Nothing Special

Heyyyy!

So, so, hello bloggie! Long time no see. Been hooked up to Tumblr! Wheee!
Saturday was interesting much. Fun Day was awesomeee!
Glad I have sort things out with Kamz! :)

Nothing much on Sunday and gosh Narresh's status was very ouchful! Made me feel so bad! :(
Anyways ex T crush has gone Singapore! Haiz! D:
Argh who cares! That's a very old story -.-

Tuition was more to gossip class today. Me and Kuga talking bout our probs and all! It feels so good to be back to normal with her. :) *sigh of relief*

Oh btw I have no idea why on earth is the post title 'Pop.' ._.

Even The Smallest Things You Do, Matter The Most To Me

Mood: Outta my mind! :D

Ooh La La, Ooh La La! :P
Zee Cine Awards!

Ok I'm not watching, I'm here multitasking like a boss.

I'm in a good mood now cause I cried too much already and it freaking hurts. Ouchie, my eyes!
The problems with Kuga sort ady. Wheee.

Yesterday was freaking awesome. Yes yes yes!
Thank you brain for making me go down late, thank you aunty for leaving me. Wheeeee!
I really had fun in my mind and idk. Wheeeee!

Been so emo, the whole schooling hours but the one thing that made me put on my genuine smile was the one that I NEVER thought would ever happen. Like seriously. OMG! I was basically screaming like mad in my head, "AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH......WHEEEEEEEEEE....OMG! OMG! OMG!" and I am still screaming, thinking about it.
Yes I know I am mad but that whole scene just woah! Unbelievable man. *giggles*
Uh 'scene', gah, drama is influencing me and uh debate. ._.

Went walking + cycling with Yoga and Jason. Went to Dano's house. Mega epicness!

So basically, I'm mega hyper right now. Like super hyper and I've been smiling like an idiot for I don't know how long.

I love you, I hate you, I wanna kiss you, I wanna kill you, I wanna text you, I wanna ignore you. Is it me, or is there something wrong with me!?

Falalala! :P

With Love Sincerely, Me

Mood: Sad; Amazed; Repentance 

The past comes haunting back and it hurts a lot. 

Had an emotional talk with a very good friend of mine. He is simply awesome. Finally, someone who understands my feelings. Now, to solve the prob. Haizz.

Anyways back to the topic, the past.

Ok, it's been a while I have been ignoring this sense of guilt but yeah gotta admit now, I feel so bad for having all the wrong thoughts about him and you know talking about murdering him in my dreams and all. I feel really bad. I am so sorry. Really sorry. I am such an idiot! 

I think I told him sorry once and when he asked why, I forgot I replied! 

And now hearing the REAL story of what happened last year, days before our break up, the guilt is killing me more. I never heard his side of the story cause he didn't tell, I asked him though. Can't believe he was that good, like seriously! OMG! That guy is sooo niceeee! God bless him. :)

I hate him?! Noooooooo! He's such a good guy, no way I can hate him! ><

P.s this has nothing to do with reasons or anything....it's a different thing! :/

Anyways, Maths was kinda OK well only till the results come out I guess! :P

BM, man that beautiful thing was kinda confusing today. Pn. Punitha, y u no good to us?! Nvm, challenge accepted! :PP

Day By Day We Are Drifting Apart

Mood: Ouch-ed! :/

So once again, had another argument with Kuga. Great.
She said no one was there for her during Form 1 when she was suffering I don't know what. NO ONE was there! :) She went through much hardships than I did and that I don't know how much she suffered. Well, how does she expect me to know when she didn't even say a thing to me? Asked her that and the best reply, "You didn't ask!" Wow! :D

I used to call her everyday without fail and on every Friday I stayback just to talk to her, did she say a word to me about anything bothering her?! A big fat no! We speak on the phone for hours and she tells me all that she does at school, happy things, and how does she expect me to know? Read her mind?! I'm no Edward Cullen! Is it sensible to ask "Are you sad?" after hearing her speak so happily and all and as far as I know, she ain't the type who gets sad very fast so of course it didn't ring a bell in my head to ask. She just kept saying that I didn't ask! Wow! Tried explaining it to her but after a while just got fed up. Fine, whatever you want. You think it's my fault, ok my fault it is. Done. She didn't make an effort to understand, I didn't find the need to explain further. I'll just shut my mouth and you can have your moment.

How does she expect anyone to be there for her and understand her feelings if she doesn't actually tell what her problem is?! We were just fucking 13!

The only problem of hers during Form that I knew of is that crush thingy. THATS IT!
And the part of remembering her suffering, well how the fuck can we remember something that we don't know of, something that was never part of our memory?! How is that fucking possible?!

I am growing sick and tired of all this nonsense. She is just...errgghhh!
Instead of blaming others, she should learn to stop for a while and think what is the main reason to blame that person, what went wrong instead of just blurting out that the person is guilty without realizing she is the one who made it that way.

No, this time it ain't my fault or anybody else, not even hers but she has got some serious realization to do. Seriously.

Yeah, it sounds like just a small matter but this small things are the ones slowly creating cracks in our friendship and I really hope something happens to fix this shit! Or.....just end up like how Seb and she was. For the best as she said!

Empty Day

Mood: Neutral

Just another boring day.
Went shopping with Yogan and all. Damn I lost to him 7-4 in the table ice hockey!
Nothing much happened. Oh well.

Good luck to all those sitting for the monthly exam. Gambateh! :)

Why, hello!

Mood: zzZZzz

*yawns* me shooo sleepy! =0

So it's March now.

Would be lying if I said I am glad you came around but since you are here, welcome! I am watching ya March, better be niceee! :P

How's life? 

Pretty messed up and I am kinda lost but would get through it soon! :)

Exams next week. Damn!

Maths and Science are gonna get me killed.

Did exercises on Maths and ergh noticed I did so many silly mistakes. I know how to do, I just somehow make tiny little mistakes. Ergh! Certain questions, I look at it and I go blank but the moment I get the hint or remember the formula...BAM...piece of cake BUT usually I am just too blind and stupid! :PP And Science? Confirmed failing! Heart, y u so complicated?!