Dont's In A Relationship

Dear people who are in a relationship, STOP. SCREWING. UP.
Okay, certain things you cannot avoid, I agree but certain things you can avoid from happening.

You can't have a relationship without any fights but you can make your relationship worth the fight.

Stop finding for problems in your relationship or your partner. I mean, you got together after knowing and accepting them as who they are, right, with their flaws and imperfections then what is the point of keep finding faults? If it is to make you look better than them, it would be the most foolish thing you could possibly do. Don't try to make your girlfriend jealous. Make others jealous of them. Most importantly, please never treat your girlfriend like crap. Don't make them feel anything less than the best. Don't ignore them in front of your so called friends just to pretend that you're cool. Man up and behave like a dude with balls. You're the one dating her NOT those so called friends of yours so why bother of what they say? Real friends would support you unless you're making a big mistake. And oh, never ignore your friends for your girlfriend or boyfriend. They were there for you before he/she was so stick with them cause this could also create problems in your relationship.
 E.g. "I don't think I am spending much time with my friends these couple of months. I've been leaving them to be with you. It's ruining my friendship with them. Let's break up. :D " See? 
Well at least that has a reason why they were gonna break up. Never ever leave your girlfriend without telling her the reason even if it's gonna hurt and by telling her truth, you'd be doing her a great favour cause the least she would do is cry for some time and then get over it instead of continuously wondering what wrong she has done and sacrifice her sleep every night thinking and crying. 

And girls, stop being over protective. Give him some space. Trust is important in every relationship and if you don't trust your boyfriend, well you might as well just give up cause you're just gonna make lives miserable for the both of you. The poor guy couldn't have fun and you would just be plain restless and then things would get so messed up and in the end, you'd be called a bitch. 

Girls are called bitch for everything, man. A girl gives her opinion. "Man, she's such a bitch."
A girl still talks and treats the guy who likes her, as a friend. 'Forget her cha, she's a bitch!" 
A girl has a boyfriend and a guy best friend. "Look at her, bitching around." 
A girl ignores you. "Bitch lah she!" 
Dear certain guys, I don't think you know the meaning of bitch. It means a female dog and the one that fucks more than one person. So, in order to actually know and call her a bitch, you must be a dog and a dog you are. Congrats. (:

Because Not Knowing Hurts

He smiles, and his eyes sparkle furiously. She looks so beautiful, naturally, her smile makes her whole face light up and shine. He aches for her to look up, look over; catch his eye. But their darting glances are shy, narrow paths that miss each other despite their souls aching for contact.
She watches him carefully, furrowed brow, hurried pen, -he stops.
She sees the calmness in his face, he looks up; hopeful eyes. She hurriedly looks away, down, at her book. Their gazes meet for a split second then retract, hide. 

So cried yesterday after quite some time but the feeling was just as fresh. What triggered it? Adeline's blog post. Promises. It was like my life story told, a part of it. Her experience brought back a rush of memories. Happy memories. The Golden Memories, they say. The ones that hurt a lot to think back about. I wonder if he even remembers them. 

Last night I realized there was so much I was hiding from myself. All those sadness and crushed feeling just came rushing to the surface drowning the person I tried to be, those empty promises I made to myself. I have apologised to God countless of times and still am for all those negative thoughts I had, for the horrible things I've said to him or about him, for being like this. 

Temper. Getting me nowhere since the very beginning. When he told me that I didn't need to know the reason why he left me in the first place was just I don't know, hurtful? I was a little angry because I have every right to know and no he does not have the right to keep it from me. No! No! No! 1 year 3 months is no short period. I admit, there was a part of me who just wanted to respond "Okay. That thing doesn't matter." but if I did, I would have only been lying to myself because it always matters when you're left without being told the reason why. Abandoned just like that. No small thing. It makes you wonder all the time of what you did wrong, fills up your mind with all the unworthy thoughts and there you are trying to pick up the broken pieces. 

Convo with Kuga, earlier today at her house.

"What if he has a good reason behind it?"

"What if he really is gonna die?"

"Everybody would die someday"

"What if he dies now? In 1-2 years?"

"He could be just lying"

"No one lies about the same thing again and again."

"He is trying to save you. An early step. Imagine if he dies when you guys are together."

"I wouldn't care."

"Ya dei, ya. He broke your heart itself you're already like this. If he dies, pochi. You'd be a gone case." 

 "He hates me. He LIKED me and now everything is screwed."

"He still likes you lah."

 As much as I wanna believe all that she has said, I just can't. 

 Maybe I'm a little stupid and a little scared. Or maybe I'm just plain sad.

Adeline's blog post - Click to open.

First, you think the worst is a broken heart

What's gonna kill you is the second part

And the third, is when your splits down the middle

And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself

Fifth, you see them out with someone else

And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little. 

Falling

Have you ever met someone who surprised you? Like, you meet this person, and at first you hardly pay attention to them. You may not be attracted to this person, but as you get to know them, you notice yourself falling. This person who was once nothing to you has become everything. All of a sudden, they're the most beautiful person you've ever met. It's just funny looking back. You never saw it coming. It just kind of happened.

:)

Holla! I am back! (:
Been away for too long.

Happy Diwali? Hehe.
Diwali was nice. Could have been better.
Was away at Puchong for 3 days. Meep!
Arvind and brotherrrrr! They were both sick. :(
Had dinner at one beautiful house. It was so elegant!
Got proposed. Like dahell?!!! Imagine getting a text like that while sitting in between your protective brother and another guy who likes you. Scary shiat!
My answer? Hell to the no! Okay, I did not exactly say that to him. I was much nicer. Practical even. Thank God he was understanding. Did not ask me why and all like other typical guys. Some guys, I tell you. ==''
Had my fringe cut! I am now a mushroom head! Meep. :D
Oh and I am currently addicted to the word Meep, I don't know why and how.

Puvee's Deepavali dinner today! It was good. "Sick" dude and my periya anna having a fight over something so silly, I feel like slapping them. DON'T. KILL. THE. MOOD. IDIOTS.

Returned Just To Go Away Again?

Ah, Blogger, long time no seeeeeeee. :P
Guess it has been a good thing.
Blogger: Been ruining my life ever since I joined. :/

Now I realize how stupid I've been. I mean, really stupid.

28 Days

Mood: Neutral

Walao, its been ages since I blogged. .___.
28 days to be exact and I still have pageviews? Thats super weird. o.O

Hows life? Still the same of course. Okay maybe slightly improved.
Trials in a weeks time and it's gonna be the 6th of August soon. :(

It's A New Dawn

Dear Talos, may the month of Sun's Height bring lesser crap into my life.

Mood: Neutral

Back after a week. Boo yeah! XD
A crappy week as usual.
Nothing special happened.
Bet he wants to kill me for talking to Shin Hau about their differences lately. Pffttt. Shin Hau started the topic k, weird I know, but he really did. So I continued lo.

Went to Little Flower Learning Centre yesterday. It was a delightful experience. God bless those kids.
Being with them made me realize how grateful I must be to be a proud Malaysian. Being a refugee ain't fun at all. I miss Ling Har, Peter, David and Lien. My awesome group members. A tiny crush on Ling Har, he's too adorable but gah he's only 13. :(

The screw that shit called love, character of Ashi is back. So pfft, no more crying over assholes. Self control activated.
More to like swearing and burning stuffs.
Oh yeah, I got over my fear of lighting a matchstick. Last Saturday. I wrote his name and burnt it. Buahahaahhahaa. It didn't burn fully, a fraction of his name is still visible.

Face The Wind And Fly

Mood: Neutral

Okay, the previous post, stupid, I know.
It has been so long since I wrote such a post.
Ugh, welcome to the dark side of my life. Again.

Whatever, just forget about that. It was just the old version of me ranting. :)
I spent the whole day smiling for no reason. I'm mad. Wohoo.
Anyways, yesterday was fun.
Met a guy who has 70% of Zayn Malik's looks. He sat right in front of me in the lecture hall. He turned when I screamed after noticing him and when I said the word 'Shit'. Whoopsie. I'm very sure he thought I was mad. Whatever. Out of 25 schools, he was the only good looking guy that we saw. Gosh, what happened to all the good looking guys? XDD

I technically abandoned Shin Hau. We were texting and then I didn't get the chance to reply him. How sad. I miss him. Nevermind, tomorrow can disturb him. Nyahahahaha. :P

Smacked Heeran on the face. That asshole. ><
Damn it was quiet when I shouted at him. Why people why? ==''
My temper is bad. Real bad. I don't care, it was his fault. I'd tolerated him since morning and I was sleepy as well. So he deserved it. No actually deserved more. Gah.

Can't believe I actually slept. Tired much.

And Deena. Urrghhh. -.-
She, she, she almost fell on him but he pushed her way but but but he still touched her.
Ah nevermind, I don't care. She should have fell. XD

Kamz said she was so proud of me cause I was doing such a good job of not bothering bout him.
Wohoo. :D

I still feel like hitting Mathana's head with something. The way he reacts is just so funny. XD

Now I feel terribly awful for not blocking Kelvine first. Shouldn't have been that nice. Ugh. Whatever.
I should have done it a long time ago when he was the reason it all got ruined, when he scolded me with all those harsh words although I was innocent. Finally, we are exactly how we should have been 10 months ago. I missed him but then after watching the way he behaved, I'm sure I made the right decision.

Broken Promises And Broken Hearts

If only I could turn back time,

I'd have what was once mine.

Mood: :(


Isn't it funny how we cannot laugh at one joke everytime it is said but we can cry over that one specific thing over and over again?

In a blink of an eye, 10 months has passed but the pain is still so fresh, it makes me think it was only yesterday it all came crashing down on me. I've been living with that hurt for 10 months, I'm surprised I'm not numb to it.

Spent everyday of 9 months crying and still continuing. I forget which month it was when I promised myself to never cry again for that crap. It worked until one day I just became dumb again. As they say, promises are meant to be broken even those that you make to yourself. It's just so hard to push away those sick feelings, the haunting memories of how much shit I have tolerated countless of times and the good ones that I wish to go back to and never let go off.

I have only cried this much for one person other than him but that was out of guilt. This one, well it's because of all those harsh words, those mean streaks, the lies, the ignorance, the cruelty in behaviour, the increasing distance, the lack of communication, his hatred towards me and the unexplained reason of why things happened the way they did.

If I treated you the way you treated me, you would hate me but look again, you already did with me having to do anything.

I still have no idea what went wrong or what I did wrong till he really hates me, like it was all my fault.
Was it?
All I remember is being the girl who had put up with all his crap and continuously supported him, was there for him when he was upset, cared for him and ended up being treated so badly.

After all I have done for you, you threw me away like I was trash and it hurts so much but it's okay, I know you don't care.

 It just leaves me alone, miserable. I try so hard to not give a shit yet the fact that he found his ego was greater is just so unacceptable.
Sorry doesn't make things right. They never do.

He is so near yet so far. So reachable yet impossible.
He had never been honest to me.
All I need is for him to explain the reason. The right one. Not the one that would please me or save him from guilt. Being mean to me isn't a big help either. It just make things worse.
All I want from him is to be honest to me. For once. Thats it. I swear I won't scold or irritate him by asking so many questions. I promise. If only.
Kamz and Thava asked me to ask and get it done with but Kuga said there's no point expecting the truth from a guy who constantly lied to me about everything. Every single thing.

He said he changed a lot. He said he wants to be a person.
Change is just a word to him. I'm the one who technically faced his changes. Just took in every hurtful words of his and tried to change it into anger, hatred. It worked for a while but didn't hold up for too long. Why? I have no explanation for that. All I know I have cried too much but I'm still not tired of it.

Me: I'm over him.

Him: Hi.

Me: Kidding. 

I don't know how he felt or feels. He's completely different. Not the person I used to know. Change. Yeah. Change.

Yes, I do get jealous when I see him with other girls. I'm very possessive of whats mine. As I said before, even it isn't mine anymore, it once was and I had full rights on it so seeing another with my belonging is so not tolerable. No no no. I don't care. He's gonna think I'm nuts? Whatever. Yes, I did say stuffs about him on the previous posts but don't I have the rights to do that? I don't care. That guy owes me big time.

I hate the idea of anyone else having you

Oh My Really

Mood: Sleepy

I've been straining my eyes for the past few hours. I. NEED. SLEEP. ASAP.

Sukan tara was some shit.
Got scolding from Mr. Rosli. Not entirely my fault la. Go blame my dumb classmates. -.- Counselling from Pn Tan Fong Peng. Supposed to be Miss Koh though but Samuel saved the day. I got so annoyed. I speak what I wanna say. I don't find the need to hold back my feelings. She kept crapping without hearing me out so I basically screamed at her saying what I had to say and she nagged me for that. Dafuq? Not my fault you weren't bothered to hear me out. I screamed at he twice. Once outside of the office and another inside her room.
I don't give a shit who you are, you nag me for a stupid reason without hearing my part of the story, I'm gonna fucking scream at you and make you understand. Just being me. :)

Okay okay so the good parts.
There's only one I guess. I got back my spot to go to Sunway College tomorrow. Wheeeeee. Now I can be with Kamz. Yayyy! :DD
Thanks Charanya. :D

But ... but ... it's at 6:30 a.m. Me wan sleep. D:
And oh, I don't know what to bring or which bag to bring. Nvm la, bring some shit bag. Like I care also.

Anyways, he looked so damn funny with that blazer on. Like a lil kid in over-sized clothes.
Too bad basket and that so called durian was absent. How sad... not! X)

Those people who liked my status about the blocking thing, they all thought it was him. Epic eh?! XD
Well, Kuga and I expected that.
People, people. XDD

Fallen Zero

Mood: Sleepy

Just woke up from my short nap but I'm still sleepy.
The meds made me so drowsy. Gah. Slept like the dead and I was freezing. Brrr.

School was like some crap. As usual.

Morning was good though. Laughed a lot thanks to Yoga. But again, no thanks to him for ruining my mood.

Shin Hau lent me his blazer. I was cold.

Dear people, adjust your mindsets would ya'll? Just cause I'm having a blazer, doesn't mean it had to be my boyfriend's. -.-

She stood next to him.
She could have stood with the girls but nooo, she didn't.
Hey girl, why do you always unintentionally make me wanna kill you? 

Eh wait, why am I talking like I care?
I don't, do I? No way. -.-

My rubber band broke during Maths today. I lost that extra one that I brought. Remind me to never tie it around my finger. Damn.
Thank God, Kamz came to the rescue with that orange rubber band. Warning: It'll be hard to take out, it'll stick on your hair." Yup, thats the disadvantage of it. Gotta take out later. Haven't tried yet. XD

I can't find my PJ shirt. D:
So dead tomorrow.
Sukantara. Bluekk.

Saw him with PJ shirt today. LOL.
It reminded me of something.
Last year, I followed Roselyn to the toilet, for her to change, I waited outside, I looked down from that balcony-ish thing or whatever its called, and saw him buttoning some kind of white shirt with green patterns, an old PJ shirt that can't be used anymore perhaps. Untucked. I remember I was like "Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"

Crazy much.XDDD

Kuga asked me out for lunch with Kirro, Charath, Aly, Hua En and Lai. I declined although I wanted to go with them. Why?

Well, for some mysterious reason it felt so odd. So unwelcomed.
Kirro, Aly and Hua En. I would have been so out of place.

Kuga tried convincing me much and Lai was being so mean, so yeah, it killed the desire to go.
I rather stay with Shin Hau and tolerate his meanness than feel uncomfortable with them.
Follow your heart, they say.

Love With Your Eyes Closed

I guess I’m coping with my biggest fear,
I think I love you still,
Well, isn’t that great,
Just like back then,
It’s just a little too late…

Skipped school today. So much for being sick. 

The doc who treated me was nice. :)

School tomorrow. Gah. I don't wanna go but I miss Kamz oh and Shin Hau. D:

Alex is still so very adorable.

Nothing much happened today.

PJ tomorrow. Argh. ==''

"Someday I would runaway to Paris with you"

Sicky Sick

Mood: Sick, very sick

Just got traditional treatment for my flu. A huge bowl of hot water mixed with Vicks and towel. Breathe in, breathe out. Pheewwww. That felt good. Hot, actually. Very hot. 

My nose is so red, my throat itches and my ears, they're annoying and I think I can go mad anytime, Aaaarrrggghhh. ><

School? Crappy as usual. 1M1S was cancelled due to haze. WTF. There was no haze man. Ergh. -.-

Class photo? That was weird. 

Got RM5 from Pn Marie Wong for getting the highest mark in English. I refused to accept cause I felt like I didn't deserve it but then she nagged and I got annoyed so I just took it. =='''

My lucky day? Yeah.

I left my money in the bag downstairs so when I went back up, I realized I only had that RM5 Pn Marie gave ,cause I just shoved it in my pocket, to buy Milo AIS!! Lalala! :PP

I paid the lady the money and didn't bother to check my balance money was right or not. When I came back home and checked, I actually had RM7.50 in my pocket. LOL! 

And my money was still in the bag, so it means the lady actually gave me back RM 7.50 instead of RM3.50. Walao eh!! XDD

Starstruck =')

Mood: Good

Hero by Sterling Knight.

So incredible
Some kind of miracle
When it's meant to be
I'll be a hero
So I'll wait, wait
Wait, wait for you

Sweet isn't it?  X)

Currently at Kuga's. Been here since 12, after Sejarah tuition. She's sleeping like a pig behind me. Wake up sleepyhead, we got tuition.

Oh well, guess we wouldn't be going. 

I miss Alex. D:

I wonder what he is doing. :/

I can't believe there are rumours saying that I used to like Kelvine. Oh pleaseeeeee. No way. ==''''

Never. Na ah. Nonononono!!!

Some Nights

Mood: Happy

Boo yeah, I'm back! :D
Blogger hasn't been working. Screw this shit. ==''

I don't remember a thing from the past days except for yesterday.
It was awesome!! :D

Krithiga's bro's wedding reception. Wheee.
Had lots of fun with Kamz, Kuga, Jass, Puvee, Chara and Kritz of course.
That annoying estate-ish poser kid. Ugh. =='' Kuga's laling. XDD

So, I got a pet cat. I'll write about him tomorrow. :) <3

A Broken Heart Is A Twisted Mind

Mood: Moody

Today sucked. Okay. Yay.
PMS-ing much. Gah!! >_<

Lack of sleep. Slept at two yesterday, all thanks to my troll brain that decided to continue writing the 1 Malaysia letter. Was like a thief in my own house just to search for an a4 sized envelope and stamp without waking up my parents. Epic.

Constantly battling with myself to stay awake. Headache. Dammit.

Passed by Shin Hau twice and pretended like I didn't see him. He questioned me on that.
So serious, well I was serious as well. I was annoyed but then we talked and everything is now back to normal. :)

Went Summer Ice with Kuga, Kamz and Jass. Their service was slooooowwww.
NIE, lol, I didn't do a thing. I was late by 20 minutes and they both were almost finished with it.

Layknaath said something and I got so moody.
Gah, can't trust my moods for the next one week. It's gonna be hell. D:

Reblogged tumblr posts like mad. They were all so bloody true. LOL.
Okay. Time to go drown myself.
No, not die but close enough if you know what I mean. X)

Sugar Laws

Mood: Drunk but not drunk, drunk. You get what I'm saying?! :PP

So, had a good time with my boyfriend. Yeah I missed him like a lot although we see each other everyday, we don't actually get to spend much time together. Sad isn't it?

Yeah, I'm talking bout my bed. Lalala. :)

4 hours of nap doesn't seem enough. I could have slept till tomorrow morning but the only I woke up was to watch Ram Milayi Jodi and now still awake cause of Tetris. D:

Just too tired today. Tried very hard to not sleep in class.
1M1S awesome as usual. We waited for a month+ just to play.
They asked the Emerald and Topaz badminton players to go to Bilik Kuliah for some kind pengadilan shit.
Kuga, Charath and I didn't go at first but then we went cause Charath's ketua called him. We were the first ones. The only reason we went in was to enjoy the air-conditioner for a while. Wheee.

It was soooo niceeeeee. 

We ran out as soon as Pn Vijaya came back in again after calling the rest.

Had fun playing badminton with Layknaath, Vinnodth, Kishen and Joon Fatt. Yes, Wong Joon Fatt! :D 

He was in my team. Both of us vs the three of them. Joon Fatt pro giler le. He was fast. 

Layknaath thought I sucked at cause when we played earlier, I wasn't serious about it. I was dancing with Charath. XDD

But then, I butakan him. I can play, you idiot. 

Kishen did his golf style. lol. damn funny.

I always give the shuttle to Joon Fatt to serve. I suck at serving. Lalala. :PP

Got burned like teruk teruk. 

If I'm not mistaken, saw his grandpa worried sick while waiting for him I supposed but it was Praveen whom he fetched. Ok, I guess I'm mistaken or maybe not. Oh well. Whatever.

Shin Hau didn't really talk to me today. I passed by him 3 times. Morning, I followed Kuga and Kirro to sign, he saw me, not even a smile, he didn't even come and talk to me. We were standing opposite of each other yet nothing. Then, I saw him during recess, I smiled, he stared at me and went. He passed by my class, I said hello, he asked waaaattt with that look. Seriously not Shin Hau-ish. While we were playing, I noticed him looking at the direction we were playing, I then continued playing. He was far far away. Rachel Khoo was with him. Consoling him perhaps. People came asking me what was wrong between me and Shin Hau cause they saw Rachel Khoo holding him. She wants to hold, hold la. Why tell me? ==''''''

My bus came, I turned to look at him then quickly turned away to avoid the awkward eye contact that almost took place. He waved twice but I pretended to not see. You ignored me tons of times, I ignore you twice, no harm done. Yeah yeah I know that is not how things work but I always treat people back the way they treat me. So, yeah. :/

Staying back tomorrow till 3:30. NIE, Summer Ice. Kamz. Kuga. Wheeeee. :D

Beginning Of the So Called New Semester.

Mood: Sleepy

Wohoo, finally successfully plaited a French Braid. Boo yeah!
It isn't perfect but would do. :D

Today. School. Shit. Yes.
Slept during assembly. I got really annoyed when Mastura was on the stage to give a speech. I disliked her ever since she threw away my geo map and my artwork saying that I was doing something else. I mean seriously, woman, you were a relief teacher, you don't teach me any subject therefore your usage of words were bloody wrong. I actually cried at night because of her. Not cause she threw away my stuffs but to the fact that I didn't do anything about when I could have.
I would have won so easily but I didn't do a bloody thing. Really regret that. So now every time I look at her face, that desire to get revenge and my failure to show her that I'm no person to mess with, burns me.
No, I wasn't afraid of her. I was just too annoyed and disappointed to do anything at that moment. It took me quite some time to draw that damn map properly and out of the blue this random woman appears and ruins it.
It made me think how can I be a good lawyer later on if I can't win something that small, when I was too clueless to let go of the golden opportunity I had to show who was the boss. Fuck that shit la. The sense of regret ain't leaving anytime soon. I hope one of these days, she comes in for relief. I swear I would purposely attract her attention to me and get her back. Trust me, I would do anything to get that guilt out of me. Bring me to Miss Koh? Oh pleasee, I have everything planned out in my mind. My words, my actions, my reactions. Every single thing. Yeah I look dumb, I sound dumb but I'm not dumb. Irritate me and escape? No chance. I'll get you back anyhow especially when you've hurt my ego. You're gonna get it from Mastura, trust me. I don't usually have grudges in people but when I do, you're in deep shit. Ask all those who have gotten the sweet taste of revenge from me. :)

Class was ok. Classmates were creeepppyyy. They said they missed me. Isn't it sad? I didn't miss any of them. XDD

So, I got 92 out of 100 for BM paper 2. I forgot that my classmates have no idea how much I dislike when people cheer when I get high results. I know it isn't really that sincere because somewhere deep inside them, I know they wish it was them so when they actually cheer, I feel like I took away something that they really wanted. I can't say that I don't deserve it because I did put my whole effort in doing it but when they think that I'm superior than them, it actually kinda hurts. They consider me as better, a threat. All my life, I accepted myself to be equal with the rest. There are people better than me but I swear I never thought of anyone being any lower than me. It doesn't work that way for me. Maybe sometimes I do it for fun, you know saying that I'm awesome and all, well that's just to lighten up the mood, energise people, making them think in a fun way. :)

Yeah I know some people crave for attention. They wanna feel good. Not me. I'm happy being a sarcastic retard, a joker, a totally carefree person. Attention is so not my thing. It scares the hell outta me. ._.

His look to Justin today when they announced that Chemistry teacher, scaaaarryyyyy, his eyes were like gonna pop out. Okay I noticed it cause I randomly turned and bam.Aaaaarrghhh.

Had that long distance laugh with Charath. That moment when they announced that 1M1S is on, we both looked at each other at the same time and smiled knowingly. :PP
We loveeee 1M1S. I told the akkas' next to me not to whack me with shoes for yay-ing. :PP

School, Again.

Mood: Neutral

I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOL. NONONONOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.  :(

Ugh, classmates. Ugh, teachers. Ugh, assembly. Ugh, homeworks. Ugh, folio. Ugh, exhaustion. Ugh, exam results. Oh wait, I totally forgot about that. Shit. I'm dead.

I am gonna suffer waking up early in the morning tomorrow. 5:30 a.m.

My nails feel so uhm, weird?
It was quite long and beautiful. Now, pochiiii. D:
Cleaned off my nail polish as well. Haiz.

Ironed my uniform? Neah.
I always save it for the morning when I race against time. Every morning. :)

Books? Must go arrange after this. Guess it would be neat since I threw away all the unwanted papers in there that made my bag looked like a dumpster. :D

Shoes? Okay, I have no idea what condition is my shoe in. I don't even remember whether I washed them or not. XDD

Socks? Lagi la I tak tahu. Nvm, use new socks. :D

Watch? Gotta fix the time back to 12 hour system. Dammit.

What I fear the most for tomorrow is in which style should I tie my hair and go to school?
I look like a mushroom in every style. D:

I know. I sound like a complete wreck but yeah this is me, totally uninterested in school. :)

Zayn Malik. <3 :D 

Rain Drops and Sun Spots

Mood: Fine

Had lots of fun yesterday with Kuga and Kamz. 

I saw guys peeing. Eeeewwww. It was a horrifying sight. They were like 'Uh oh'. 

Iyyyerrrrr. 

Not my fault that I saw, they were peeing near the playground. What the fuck?! ==''

Then I saw dogs having eheeerrmm. XD

Disgusted much. Yucks. 

Some people should really learn to accept the truth about themselves. 

True story.

One of these days, he's really gonna get it from me. Seriously. That idiot. ==''''

And yay Shin Hau is gonna be back to buddy buddy with Shri. :)