Mood: Sleepy
Wohoo, finally successfully plaited a French Braid. Boo yeah!
It isn't perfect but would do. :D
Today. School. Shit. Yes.
Slept during assembly. I got really annoyed when Mastura was on the stage to give a speech. I disliked her ever since she threw away my geo map and my artwork saying that I was doing something else. I mean seriously, woman, you were a relief teacher, you don't teach me any subject therefore your usage of words were bloody wrong. I actually cried at night because of her. Not cause she threw away my stuffs but to the fact that I didn't do anything about when I could have.
I would have won so easily but I didn't do a bloody thing. Really regret that. So now every time I look at her face, that desire to get revenge and my failure to show her that I'm no person to mess with, burns me.
No, I wasn't afraid of her. I was just too annoyed and disappointed to do anything at that moment. It took me quite some time to draw that damn map properly and out of the blue this random woman appears and ruins it.
It made me think how can I be a good lawyer later on if I can't win something that small, when I was too clueless to let go of the golden opportunity I had to show who was the boss. Fuck that shit la. The sense of regret ain't leaving anytime soon. I hope one of these days, she comes in for relief. I swear I would purposely attract her attention to me and get her back. Trust me, I would do anything to get that guilt out of me. Bring me to Miss Koh? Oh pleasee, I have everything planned out in my mind. My words, my actions, my reactions. Every single thing. Yeah I look dumb, I sound dumb but I'm not dumb. Irritate me and escape? No chance. I'll get you back anyhow especially when you've hurt my ego. You're gonna get it from Mastura, trust me. I don't usually have grudges in people but when I do, you're in deep shit. Ask all those who have gotten the sweet taste of revenge from me. :)
Class was ok. Classmates were creeepppyyy. They said they missed me. Isn't it sad? I didn't miss any of them. XDD
So, I got 92 out of 100 for BM paper 2. I forgot that my classmates have no idea how much I dislike when people cheer when I get high results. I know it isn't really that sincere because somewhere deep inside them, I know they wish it was them so when they actually cheer, I feel like I took away something that they really wanted. I can't say that I don't deserve it because I did put my whole effort in doing it but when they think that I'm superior than them, it actually kinda hurts. They consider me as better, a threat. All my life, I accepted myself to be equal with the rest. There are people better than me but I swear I never thought of anyone being any lower than me. It doesn't work that way for me. Maybe sometimes I do it for fun, you know saying that I'm awesome and all, well that's just to lighten up the mood, energise people, making them think in a fun way. :)
Yeah I know some people crave for attention. They wanna feel good. Not me. I'm happy being a sarcastic retard, a joker, a totally carefree person. Attention is so not my thing. It scares the hell outta me. ._.
His look to Justin today when they announced that Chemistry teacher, scaaaarryyyyy, his eyes were like gonna pop out. Okay I noticed it cause I randomly turned and bam.Aaaaarrghhh.
Had that long distance laugh with Charath. That moment when they announced that 1M1S is on, we both looked at each other at the same time and smiled knowingly. :PP
We loveeee 1M1S. I told the akkas' next to me not to whack me with shoes for yay-ing. :PP
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