Mood: Cheerful but about to breakdown any moment!
Facebook Status: Mommy is the best! Turned my frown upside down!
Mommy made me laugh so hard by telling me stories of me when I was a little.
Can't believe I was so epic!
And wheee I was daddy's little girl and mommy's worst nightmare and wootz I still am!
Had an argument with Kuga yet again. Wonderful!
I did not find the need to tell anyone about me liking someone and even if I told, wouldn't make much of a difference,that's it! And amazingly it's considered as hiding things! What happened to privacy?! I invaded her privacy?! Well I HAD TO since she was being the good sis more than a good friend and she said it as though I had fun doing it. Trust me, it was not fun....AT ALL! Well, I am extremely sorry! No worries, would keep in mind that from now I should never interfere in her personal stuff. Na ah! Lesson learnt!
When I said "as though you would have bothered" , I meant she would have been like everyone else, won't really pay much attention to it NOT that I don't trust her but she misunderstood that. I think that she didn't bother when she asked him those questions, well actually I think she shouldn't have asked at all! Best part, she still cared more of how he would react than trying to understand how I felt! That was awesome! And me caring for my curiosity was very wrong! Oopsie!
Respect peoples feeling even if it doesn't mean anything to you, it means everything to them.
I'm not suffering from within! I'm fine however I am! I'm used to! She said she cared so she asked well if she had cared and TRIED to KNOW MY feelings at the same time, then she would have known what to do.
I don't need hers or anyone's help and especially not sympathy. Seriously! She wanted to help me after knowing bout him but I already did so she's not much of a help. Nobody is! It's my own problem and I would like it to stay that way! I'm tired of having people telling me what to do! It's my life! My emotions! I wanna live it my way! It's my wish if I wanna cry, I wanna suffer or whatever I wanna do!
She said I get hurt easily. Heck yeah then why do things that would hurt me?! That would make me angry?!I admit I was kinda rude but doesn't she know how bad my temper is?! How I can't control it?!
I calmed later on and did try to be nice but guess what, she ignored my attempts yet AGAIN! Fineeee! Her wish! I don't know what went wrong! We hardly used to have problems but now it changed and I really hate being angry with her but she has to realize stuffs too. Really!
She can be as mean as she wants, wouldn't make a difference to me cause I'm very used to being treated that way. Oh yeah, so much that it's making me grow numb these days. Like it doesn't affect me.
And the funny part is, that meanness was supposed to make me feel better. To make me forget. Well as far as I know, it was very hurtful and definitely was not much of a help. I wonder from where people get this type of ideas. Hurting people so that they forget?! Well, it just makes things worst and the word forget does not exist there, pain and disappointment does!
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