Mood: Upset
Too bad there isn't much new books since my last visit there. Haiz!
Screw online checking! I was way too early and late! The next show was at 4:30 and I couldn't make it so yeah I was at Popular staring at the same books. Weird how I felt someone I know was there. Saw Aina and her brother. I kept looking around in case I see anyone I know around, you know, so I can escape to somewhere far far away from them.
Arvind texted me. Aiyo he mad fella la. His texts made me smile and I kept mumbling "Stupid!" "Idiot!" cause aiyo his texts all ah as cacated as him! XD
My books were so heavy, I could barely walk properly carrying em! And I scratched my finger. Ouch! That was so painful. Was bleeding! And I was sucking the blood and the people around were staring at me as though I was a nutcase. Bluekk!
It's been a terrible day yesterday. Nono, it's more to the "Eh, wow?!" day! How can Kuga even think I forgot her! Gosh. Ok, she's jealous. Fine! But she could have just told that to me instead of telling him first and when I asked she said at least he was there for her. Ok! In her opinion, I wasn't gonna listen to her. Ok fine. She had a problem with me and instead of telling it to me, she told him. He was there for her, I wasn't right?! Ok. She asked him whether she should tell me or not. Doesn't she know me well enough to know that I wouldn't get mad or anything?! Ok fine. She told him first maybe cause she was scared and unsure but after that she could have told me in detailed bout it rite?! NO! She did not! Ok, I get it. She was angry. She kept replying me with :P and I didn't like telling it to him cause I have no rights to and yes he found it very annoying but hey no one was listening to me. What am I supposed to huh?! Just sit there and wonder what the heck was my fault?! And yeah the Jusco thing, I called her but didn't get through! And no, I didn't invite Lai also since I know she has transport problem. I don't know who invited her. I was too busy to ask anyone, Kamz was the only online so I asked her but we spoke about it once only. Hah!
I felt bad but she has to understand my communications with Kamz was never intended to make anyone jealous or sad or angry or feel forgotten! The reason why I don't include Kuga in the convo cause me and Kamz are usually emo-ing like mad and Kuga is not the emo type and I like her in that blur case way of hers. And I just found out that Kamz has some probs with Kuga. I swear I didn't know that. And guess what, now Kamz doesn't wanna talk to me cause she thinks she's ruining my friendship with Kuga. Oh c'mon people, how silly could you all be?! I mean it's no biggie. I just gotta spend equal time with both. Job done. Why are they making it so complicated?! Aiyoooo Raamaaa! XD Ah I like that line.
She didn't even pick the damn phone until he asked her to. She's closer to him than she is to me, no I didn't just complain yet. She was closer to him way before I was closer to Kamz and she always tell me she was chatting with him, they were talking stuffs and all while I wasn't getting any conversation from any of them so yes I did feel jealous but I kept quiet, no complains.
He told me not to talk about it to her cause I might hurt her feelings. Ok, I listened to him. I didn't talk about it to her but he should have told that to her also since she kept pulling Kamz into whatever topic I change to. It did hurt my feelings too. I mean hello, I'm not a doll, I got feelings too but who the hell cares right?! Ah whatever lar. She was using sarcasm all the way and I somehow managed to control my sarcasm since I didn't want to make her angry or anything but trust me, I had every right to use double sarcasm on her.
1) For not trusting me
2) For complicating stuffs
3) For not paying attention to my apologies cause she was too busy chatting with him.
4) For making me feel bad
Gah nevermind, leave it ashi! Shhh! Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
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