Disaster

Today did not turn out to be exactly like how I wanted it! I had a terrible headache all of a sudden and it was hurting like mad but it was gone then.

You were with your friends and I was all alone. I wanted to come over but you seemed busy. I guess you were having a very important conversation with your friend so I didn't want to disturb you. I thought he'd be gone in few minutes time but he stayed for a really long time.

I heard you talking.You were real loud. It sounded like you guys were debating on something maybe. I don't know but you seemed occupied and I felt that if I go to you that time, I would have surely ruined the fun you guys were having.

So, I still sat down there all alone doing MATHS wishing you were around to teach me.

Out of the blue, Charath came and almost gave me a heart attack. The convo:

Charath : Why are you sitting here ALONE? 

Me : Because I wanna be alone (what a lie!)

Charath : Yaya! He went back already. He's not around

For a moment, I wondered how blind could he be!

Me: He's right over there. 

Charath: *horrified*! Owh, I didn't see. Why aren't you sitting there with him? 

Me: *tried to look unbothered*  Neah. He seems busy. Later maybe?

Charath: Owh ya. He's talking to a guy.

Me: Err,yeah. *turned to look at him then continued doing Maths*

And there I was thinking what on earth is happening? Should I go? What is he thinking, etc! My head was loaded with questions and that's when headache struck again. OUCH! 

Luckily I had Charath to distract me or else I would have screamed in pain. He was cracking some jokes and I played along just to avoid questioning myself. There were times I turned to look whether you were still busy and every time I turned I got the same result. B-U-S-Y! 

Charath: Ashi, so long already. Why not going? 

Me: Can't you see he's busy? I don't wanna disturb him.

Charath: Fuh! He's busy ah? So got timing all lar?

Me: -.- watever!

And we continued doing random stuffs.

One part, I saw your friend walk away and I was like 'Yay! Finally!' but when I turned around to look at you,  YOU WERE MISSING and I was like "Eh? Where is he?"

Me: Charath! He's not there! :o

                              Charath: Eh? Where he went??

Me: How would I know?? 

Indhu: Desire Knight! :D

Me: Indhu!!! Mana itu satu lagi Knight?? 

Indhu: He ah?! Err, I saw him jalan that way. 

Me: Which way??

Indhu: That way! *points towards the dewan*

Me: Owh that way! Thanks! *surprised...continued doing maths!*

Few minutes later, you came walking by...

Charath: Ashi! He's there! He's coming this way. I think he's coming here.

Me: *Enlighten* I turned to look and wheee you were there!* No, Charath! I don't think so he'll be coming here. (I was wishing you'd come)

Wish did not come true. You just walked away to your place.....

Me: *disappointed*  I told you so! =='

Charath: Owh! Oops.

You were alone for a while....

Charath: Ashi, he wants you there lar. Go!

Me: Shuddup! 

Charath: Eei seriously lar. He really wants you there. I can see it from his face and I know you want to go also.

Me: -.- 

Charath: Go lar! He's alone now. Want me to go and tell him you want to come over?

Me: That guy is gonna appear any time soon. NO! Don't do that.

Charath: OK fine! We'll wait for 10 seconds and if that guy doesn't come back, I'll go and call Shri to come and sit with us!

Me: What??!! First, Why 10 seconds? Second, why wanna go call? Third, err that guy is back!! =(

Charath: *speechless for a few minutes.* Owh Ashi, see now Ramesh also there. See lar!

Me: Ya I know. I saw! 

I tried to take it positively and continued doing random stuffs with Charath. I was trying hard to get it out of my head but I couldn't take it already. I wanted to be with you! So I turned to look one last time but guess what, YOU WERE MISSING AGAIN and this time nobody knew which way you went. I had a really bad feeling about it. I waited for quite some time but you never came back. 

I and Charath kinda searched for you. I noticed that your bag wasn't around. I found out....you left. You went back an hour earlier than the time you were supposed to. You know how I felt? I felt bad! I felt horrible. I felt like crying but I did not because I'm just a puppet what!

Charath told we should go down to the pavilion to watch the match and I just agreed. When reached the pavilion, I don't know why but I seriously had the feeling that you were around. I was supposed to sit down with the rest to watch the match but I somehow ended up walking down the walkway all the way outside with no intention of doing so. 

But when I reached down, I felt so dead. So lifeless. I didn't see you anywhere. I couldn't get to go to the bus stop since it was too crowded. I just stood at one place stared at the ground and wondered how worthless could I be? "Did I make you angry? I'm just too bad right? I suck to the max right? I'm sorry." And ergh I hate tears! 

After some time, unbelievably you just walked pass me with Afiq, I guess. At that moment, I felt like killing someone. Anyone! I had no idea why. Sickening!