Drowning In All Of Your Change

Mood: =(

So it's 1 in the morning and I'm here crying and talking and begging to a picture. Yeah, I rock. :D

Went through old conversations with him, conversations we had when he isn't the jerk he is now. When he isn't the guy who lifts up my spirit and at the same time brings it down to a level where it barely exists. Yeah, gone back for a while to the time, where he wasn't mean or ignorant, to the time when he actually had emotions even when he said he was heartless cause compared to now and before, he was wayyy awesomer before. He changed. A LOT. To the worst. Why? I don't know and never would cause as the person he is now, even a simple Hi is hard to say, so how am I gonna be able to understand why he changed. He once said he changed. He even apologised for being mean but what is he doing now?! The same old thing in the form of nothing.
I guess he forgot that we were once actually F-R-I-E-N-D-S.

I've been complaining to the picture on how much I hate this damn jerk he is now. How much he sucks compared to the old one. I've been begging the person in the picture to come back and kick away this bloody jerk far far away where he can never find his way back to our lives.

Heartless?! Emotionless?! Seriously?!
One fine day, when I gain the courage, go up to him and slap him, lets see what's his reaction would be. Hah! Dont think I won't do it. One day when I really can't take it already, I swear I would do it. Controlling my temper and almost everyone knows how bad my temper is.

Have time for everyone else except me?!
Yeah, everyone else was with him during his time of needs what. I wasn't ma.
Everyone else understood him what, I didn't. =='

Seriously, the old him rocked!
This new him, horrible, terrible, awful, eww, mean, ass, idiot, dumb, flirt, mean, a big jerk in total.

If only he could be the old him, maybe with a little improvements, people would stop hating him.
I wouldn't be hearing any complaints about him. Trust me, they're really not pleasant to the ears.
I think good for him but he hates me. What's my fault again?! ._.

What's my problem?
My problem is I lost a friend. I know he's still alive but he's not strong enough to fight the devil he has become.