Mood: Neutral

I'm still wide awake, gonna regret it tomorrow morning but who cares?! 

So we sucked at our Bicara Berirama competition. D: 

But sight-adikiran that cute guy just made it all a whole lot better oh and non-stop texting with Shin Hau. :)

Singh is King! :D

Kuga and I kept circling the SMK Senawang's hall, just to look at him. He was one of the photographer's! :D 

We were so disappointed that there were no hot guys to sight adikiran but them he passed by and we melted. Wheee! :D

Dared Yoga to go ask him where was the toilet although we already knew. He was kind enough to even show the way. I guess he knew we were hitting on him. :PP

Followed Kuga to go buy her prefect uniform. The colour sucks. Eewww. 

Apam Balik and Ais Kacang for lunch. XD

Went tuition with our uniforms. Baju kurung. 

Came home. 

Was so exhausted. Tried to continue replying Shin Hau's text but at one point, I was gone, knocked into sleep. 

My dream, can't remember the whole thing, just a few scenes. Crazy, man. Crazy. 

So today is just another boring day. Nothing happened other than ultimate texting. 

Faulted Week

Mood: Don't even ask

It's been a terrible week. D:
Too many conflicts in most of my relationships. D:

Did something super unexpected yesterday.
I am braver than I thought I was.
Like damn epic. Wheeeeeee. :D
Shall do it again the next time I get a chance. Ssshhhh.
It's a secret between me and God. :PP

Going for Bicara Berirama competition tomorrow.
Hope a brick falls on Yoga's head.
Eunice stalked me blog. XD
Glad she's safe back home from Japan.
Missed ya weyh. =')

Wild dreams every night. Rawr.

Sometimes You Gotta Fall Before You Can Fly.

Mood: smdshdsddjdh.....shhhleeepppyyy

Skipped school yesterday. Lalala.
Found out at tuition that my class won for kebersihan by chance. Thank God I didn't go school, didn't have to go up on the stage to receive the piala pusingan. Hah! Pity Thibaa! XD
Heard smth from Vishu that made me feel so disappointed.

School today was fuuun. Well kinda la. Woke up with a bad mood thanks to over thinking last night.
Annoyed by Mr Lim You Thon. Ugh. I mean dude, I don't wanna join that damn thing means I don't want to, quit forcing me and people me no wanna be the damn conductor so stop asking me. =='''''

Charath made me laugh though. =')

Classes were normal. Not a word spoken to Layknaath nor Yoga. But they did end up apologizing in the end. Hah! I knew he would.

It's hard to not talk to me. Muahahahaha! :PP

1M1S rocked today although it rained. The droplets were damn heavy. Got hit twice on my head and once on my shoulder. Ouchie. :(

Kamz and I went around doing the estate wave but mostly her and we were so hyper and made, we didn't realize how stupid we were behaving. Kyahahaha! XD

That epic laugh you share with your bestie when you realize you were acting stupid in front of your crush the whole time. XD

You can never hide anything from me. I'm an ultimate stalker and I have friends everywhere that updates me of everything even if I don't ask them to. :D

Suits very much on the news that I found out. He said I didn't have to know, I found without even trying to know. That's why it rocks to have friends. They tell you stuffs that you want to know without knowing that you want to. Lalalala. XD

Anyways, yeah he deserved to kena. Gila kuasa ady. ==''

But hmm God bless him. :/ 


The Gala Takeover video rocksss still! XD

Perfect Days

Mood: Neutral

So so, Gala was awesomeeee! :D
I wore that damn shirt and those earrings on a purpose but haiz nvm, forget it. :(
Oh and also cause we planned to wear checkered and that was my only checkered shirt

My entrance with Kamz was epic.
The prefects were all those that I know so I was welcomed in a really fun way. :D
The magic of having friends.

Lepak with Thava and Pashan. :D
Walked around cause it was damn hot in the hall.
Watched Kamz sight addikiran.

Throat hurts after shouting like mad.
The video was superb! TR hidup! XD
The Chinese Paulian guys who were sitting in front of us were really nice especially that cute fella. I think I'm friends with him on facebook. Oh well whatever.

The Form 5's Kala Sala was awesomeee! :D

Follow dance was fuuuunnn. Shin Hau totally went mad. XD

Sleepover at Kuga's. She got angry at me for something and until now I have no idea why. I really didn't do anything. .___.

I didn't eat anything so I was hungry. Twisties, mesti mau!! That was my dinner and supper! XD
Went to bed, gossiped for a while and poof slipped into Dreamland.

Woke up around 11. Breakfast. Tv. Phone. Online.
We were watching The Hunger Games while eating when he there was someone who sent Kuga a message. Since there were three names in front, couldn't see who it was so I wanted to check who it was and the moment I touched the mouse, bam, closed the whole Google Chrome tab accidentally. Everything was normal until we realized that The Hunger Games tab was closed and we gotta watch it from the start. D:
And when we got back to facebook and checked who it was, we practically laughed out loud. Epicness. XD

Back at 6:45 or so. Saw Micheal and Aeric while passing by the futsal court. :D

Rainbow After The Rain

Mood: Tired

So had a boring Wednesday.
Was Forever Alone during ELS meeting. :(
Didn't speak to Kamz that whole day.
But solved the probs already on that day itself.

Yesterday was like wth! My money got stolen. :(
Tuition was epic.

Today? It's Memory Day. In fact every night of mine is. Stupid mind.
Epic sudden clash. Epic lessons. Epic jokes. Epic flirting. Epic merajuk-ing. Epic crazy moments. Epic sarcasm. Epic insults. Epic doings. Just another epic day.
Couldn't stop smiling and laughing during assembly. The girls sitting next to me shot me confused stares. Why was I like that? Hahaha, you wouldn't wanna know. Probably would confirm me as M-A-D. :PP #stillsmiling

Went to the night market a.k.a. pasar malam with Kuga, Roselyn, Yoga, Kalvin and Vinnodth.
The very first guy I interviewed and the first successful one for Ros, Vinnodth Yoga and Kalvin said I was like his daughter. Awww so sweet of him. =')

Tomorrow school. Gala. Sleepover at Kuga's. Awesome! Which means I'd be going back home only at 11:30. D:

Can It Get Any Worse?

Mood: Sleepy

So my day was just so crapstatic today.

Nothing fun happened.

Kuga still not talking.

Not my problem already. I apologized, she didn't care, I don't give a damn.

1M1S sucked.

Accidentally hit her shuttlecock to the Anjung's rooftop and she scolded Charath instead. =='''

She wouldn't have if things were good between us.

Kamz came and said "You didn't just make things worse" with that sarcasm. Like seriously?! It wasn't on purpose k. So just walked off. Whatever.

Everyone left.

Kirthana kept poking me, asking me what was wrong. Roselyn forever blur. Yogan forever irritating.

Kamz is probably gonna ignore me tomorrow. OK. Nevermind.
No I did not ignore her, she was awaaayyyy.

I did smile when she called me but I couldn't have just go running to her leaving Roselyn behind. So all I did was smile and walk away. Did NOT ignore.

This is just a FYI statement in case anyone decides to blame me later on. :)

The Feelings We Feel

Oh Dream catcher, need one you to help me now.

Mood: Unsure

How sad and strange we are.

I can't remember the last time I laughed this much. It's been a while. A sudden burst of sadness fills me.
I don't know what is it, what for or why but it's there, tormenting me. I even hardly smile these days. It's like so painful to do so. Something's stopping me but it sucks not knowing what it is. It's hard to sleep at nights, I just lie awake and keep telling my mind to go to sleep.

What's wrong with me?

I got hiccups like 5 times today. Mom and Vishu said it's cause someone is thinking of me. Seriously?! 5 times? In ONE day? Why me? Why? >_<

Am I supposed to be happy that I got to laugh this much after so long or sad that the price of this laughter was the anger of my good friend?

Stupid question, I know. But haiz I don't know la.
I just miss laughing so much. :(

Haiz. Ok. Whats the problem? Well, me and Vishu got kinda perverted earlier on so we were basically saying 'stuffs' to Kuga. And when I mean 'stuffs', I mean real horrible ones. =/

Couldn't help it. Everything's funnier when you have a dirty mind, rite? D:

You see, she didn't understand a thing so we continued crapping. I swear it was so funny. Nonsense much. XD
Didn't expect her to be that angry. I mean c'mon.
We did apologize though, she didn't say a word. .___.

Shin Hau texted me, no mood to reply. I feel bad but I'll just tell him tomorrow. Wanna go sleep anyways. Bet he's worried. :(

Hours To Hell.

Mood: Neutral

So they've gone back. :(

And urgh it's gonna be Monday in a few hours. School. Living hell. Waking up early in the morning. Die.

Sivik Folio. Pn Rathi. = ='''

Seni tomorrow. So screwed.

Fairy Candles

HAPPY BLACK VALENTINE

Mood: In love

Kailash Kher rockz! Swaying calmly to his rhythm. =')

So went to the Gurdwara today. It was an interesting experience. The most difficult task was to make sure my head was always covered with the shawl. My shawl kept falling off. D:

Saw Simer, Simran, Kelvine, Nashvinder Jaspreet, Hani and Umeera. Wheee.

I didn't know much bout Waheguru, only that my momsy believes in him so asked the whole history about him. Thank God Sunder had enough patience to handle my curiosity. The birth of Khalsa was the best. Like so cool wei the story. Sat in and listened to the devotional songs they were singing. So calming. 

Bro's here. Gossip time oh and ultimate bullying. Pity me! D:
Went out for dinner. Everyone was so hungry, we quickly dug into our foods the moment it was set on the table. Yum! Yum! :D

I love Shin Hau. =')

Just Swing Away

Mood: Nothing but happy

Happy Tamil New Year and Happy Vaisakhi.

So spent my Wednesday at Jusco with two awesome besties, Kuga and Lai. Watched Wrath of The Titans. Our seats were B5, B6 and B7. Damn near to the screen. My neck did hurt a little. D:

Yesterday was epic. It was a good day. What?! The form 5 gang?! Peh, didn't affect me at all.
Seriously when Uva told me I am gonna face the consequences soon I expected it to be something big but after lol-ing like mad yesterday, got the fact I'm messing with a preschooler. As I said, kids these days trying to be funny. One girl vs their gang. Proud of myself. They need each other to go against me and I, stand all by myself and shut their mouths. Why do I say so? I passed by Uva once when he was alone, he didn't say anything. I passed by Dhayalan when he was alone, he was quiet also but when they are together, God bless their mouths.

Insults replied by insults. Sarcams replied by sarcasm. Vulgar word replied by vulgar word. Score 1 to Ashi. :)
What did they think?! Call me names and I would cry? Oh please, I've been called worse before and whatever they're saying seriously makes me wanna ROFL! Cause they're just that childish. God bless them. Kuga said I should stay quiet. I wanted to yesterday but oh well just had to speak out and show I'm immune to their ridiculous words. :)

Kirro said I should have apologized again the moment Uva said I'll face the consequences. If I did that, I would have lost the respect I have for myself. It would make him think that I'm weak when I'm not. He didn't even deserve my sorry in the first place. See?! I tried to make peace but he wanted an argument so there we go.

I don't like people who thinks they're hell of a great person. If he thinks he's so great that why don't he face me one on one? Coward much?! I dare to speak against his whole gang and he can't speak to just ME all alone? Proven how much of a great person he think he is.

Went for lunch with the Drama team. Roamed around the school with Shin Hau. :)
Can't believe he was so jobless that he came all the way to Chat Masala. XD

Tuition was great. Went completely crazy with Kuga. :D

Was supposed to go to the Pasar Malam today with Roselyn, Kuga, Yoga and Layknaath but since Roselyn had something on we had to postpone it to next week. Wanted to go to Kuga's but if I stepped out of my house today, would have burnt to death. The weather was so hot.

So badly wanna watch how Punjabi's celebrate Vaisakhi at the Gurdwara but I don't know whether I missed it or not. .___. Sunder haven't replied me yet. Why I wanna watch?! Cause I want a Punjabi boyfriend/husband. XD Neah just kidding. No actually I'm serious. Chakde phatte! :D

Happily Happy

Mood: Good.

Extremely sleepy but forcing myself to type now. zzzZZzzz.

Today, I'm a frigging ray of sunshine. Happy! Happy! And happyyyyy! :D
Stayed back till 4 smth for absolute nothing and ended up losing my notebook!! :(

Had fun with Kuga, Lai, Kelvine, and Charath in the library today. Wheee! :D

So, had Uva tell me the F word like I give a damn. Like seriously?! I'm not afraid of that word. Should have called me a bitch or showed me the middle finger. Wouldn't have made any difference to me cause I'm used to it. It's not my fault he's overly perasan-ted. "Forever A Basket" is definitely a word that he's gonna remember and dislike forever. Whatever. Good thing I blocked him on facebook the other day itself. I actually wanted to unblock and apologise to him today but nevermind. Even after he told me the F word, I still wanted to apologise to him but let my ego control me for now.

Wait, I unblocked him. Why on earth did I do that?! Damn me! Still not gonna apologise. Bet he's gonna block me first. Whatever la. Wanna talk to Kuga about it but she's busy so nvm. Oh wait again, I just ended up apologising to him. Ego, y u no stay?! You see, we are actually equal now but yet I'm the one apologising first. Why? Cause I'm just so idiotic. Why do I always end up apologizing although I don't do any mistakes? WHY?

No idea why but I'm just so happy today. Awww yeahh! :)

Mood: Good

Slept at 4 in the morning. Late night talks with Kuga rocks!
Gossiped like mad. Bwuahahahaha!

Got up at 10. Damn phone calls and text messages. Arvind and the rest, y u no sleep?! =='
Daddy brought me out for breakfast.
Planned to sleep but didn't. Damn me!

The awesome feeling you get when someone says you made their day.


Texting with Shin Hau and Antony is fun. :D

Beautiful Day

Mood: Cheerful

First thing I saw on my news feed, did it hurt?! Hell no. Sat here, laughing and then liked the status. As on my status: 

You seriously think you can break me now?! Bring my spirits down? Hell no boy. You have done enough and every move you make now just makes me want to ROFL! XD

Anyways, it has been a great day. 

Woke up at 8:30 in the morning with a smile on my face, surprisingly. 

Went shopping with aunt to get her things for her House Warming Party that is still going on. 

Met that friend of mine again. Wheee! He called me 'Cantik!' XD 

Got that by a few of them at party but it was all in Hindi which is 'Soni!"

The epic moment when a kid asks you if you're married. XD

Tuition was ok. Yogan was just plain irritating. 

Didn't get to go to U-nite cause of the party. D:

 

A Broken Bond

Mood: Mixture of emotions

You know the feeling you get when a family member disowns you?
Hurtful isn't it?!
Who?! My sweet old cousin, Yoga.

He said 'Sorry'. Does he even know the value of that word?
I hate being compared to or with another person even if it is with my closest friend.
She's a better counselor?! Good for you.You tell her everything?! Good for you. She's a sister to you and I'm just some random crap? Good for you. :)
You gonna say I'm better than the other person? Don't. Everyone's different and special in their own way. Comparing them is just gonna bring their spirits down. And compare me with another?! Urgh pleaseeee! I don't care that there's someone better than me, all I know is I'm original and proud to be who I am. I don't need people's comparison nor judgement to prove who I am. It really pisses me off when this happens.

Don't like my attitude and I should change it? I didn't say you have to like it and change myself just cause you don't like who I am? No thank you. Go look at yourself in the mirror before you judge another person. I'm not the one being hated, I'm not the one being called annoying. Why don't you change your attitude first before asking others to.

Basically, no more communication with him after this. No matter what he says, I'm done. Tired of his sword like words that keep dragging my spirits down. No more. I'm sure he'd go complain to her, like I'm bothered.

Actually, I wouldn't even be sad but since I have 'The 7 Days Of Torture' going on, so I'd be angry as fuck. Lazy as fuck. Hungry as fuck. Tired as fuck. And sad as fuck.


And noooooooooooooo! Facebook stop showing me those posts. :(
And wheeee stalking T crush!! Oh God why! XD

Winds Of Destiny

Mood: ?

We won 5th place for drama. We still rocked. Judgement was horrible. Puteri and SDAR didn't deserve the placings. KGV's play was freaking awesome. Cried for it. Sad giler. :(
Adeline came along. Yay!

T crush came. Omg! Omg! Omg! The awkward eye contact with him was just woah. Wheee!
KK was there also but T crush was the highlight. Oh guess what, Jassmine is crazily crushing on him too. I mean who wouldn't? But too bad for her, he adviced her not to! XD

Proud of Deena today, she wasn't such a bitch. Phew! :)

Found out there was a call made to HIM at 2:42pm today. No idea who the heck called HIM using my phone since it was been passed around to so many peeps.Crapstatic. I swear it was not me. I got no better work is it? At the time of the call, I remember real well, it was the prize giving ceremony where I totally went angry.

Went KFC with Kuga and walked around the whole Taman with our food. Thanks Yoga. =='

Well, off to bed now. That moment of eye contact is still fresh in my mind so guess I'll be going to sleep thinking of T crush. *screams*

Go go KGV! Nono I'm not betraying SBM but KGV was my dream school and still is. Been wanting to go to that school since Year 4! Every time we pass by,  I remember I used to say "That would be my school one day. K-G-V!" But too bad, the years passed and the relationship I share with my friends grew stronger and I ended up applying for SBM ONLY cause I didn't wanna be apart from my friends. Sometimes I regret that decision but sometimes I think, what if I didn't have got it even if I applied?! But damn, I should have at least tried. :( Me love KGV!

And don't think I would be going school tomorrow. Tired.

Never Ending Troubles

Mood: Tired

Hello. :D
Did I mention, some immature crap showed the middle finger last Friday just cause of one of my statuses?! Yes dumb, the truth hurts but don't have to take it that seriously. Freak. What he thought?! He'd show me the middle finger and I'll cry and be afraid? Ergh, that so does not affect me, not even 0.01%. The only thing made me annoyed is that my rights on giving opinion was the issue here. Screw those assholes. -.-

Anyways, had a not so awesome day.
Haiz.

He was pissed this morning cause of the prefect demerit thingy. I was hiding behind Darsh cause as I said, I'm afraid of him. :/

Had the Bicara Berirama thingy. I'm asked to help Bavi and Roselyn to train them. And now, they're all insisting me to become the conductor, saying that I'm better. I was there like what the hell?! I didn't wanna join this also in the first place, forced to by the teacher and now become the conductor?! Hell no. I don't wanna hold the guilt of taking Bavi's place. I mean, here's his chance to prove to others he is capable of doing something and I would never want to snatch away a person's opportunity to shine, not even in my dreams. They bullied him, I shouted at them all, they shut. Hah! Gonna help him make it through. I believe in him. :)

1M1S got cancelled. I was really looking forward to it. :(

Beyond Hopeless

Mood: Wonderful

Blasting the music real loud here, singing my heart out, wohoo rocking with my awesome hair! Finally, Imma able to do what all those rockers do with their hair. I whip my hair back and forth! XD

Expected me to sit in my room, crying, and write a sad post?!
Hell no! What is there to be sad about? Imma freaking happy. Honestly.

Taking part in the Digi Got Talent thingy with Hua En, not sure if Hua En asked Azim yet.
Ok, don't laugh. I know I'm an untalented freak but I could give it a shot.
For the sake of experience and all. Do it for fun.

Life's too short to worry how much you suck or what people think. Do what you wanna do, it's your life. And no matter what you do, in the end, society is still gonna judge you, so why be afraid in taking chances? 

Sore throat and flu are currently accompanying me. Aww how sweet of them to pay a visit. Pft, uninvited guests!

Why didn't I blog? Well you see, when I on the computer, the first thing I do, is wait, and then open three tabs:
Facebook- Scroll through news feed, notifications, messages, friend requests, stalk people.
Tumblr- Scroll, scroll, scroll, reblog, reblog, reblog.
Blogger- Sign in, stare at my dashboard, do nothing.

Got it?! XD

Going to SMK Pendeta Za'aba tomorrow to rehearse our drama.
And wth, Mr Lim You Thon wrote my name for some BM competition thingy! I don't even know what's going on. And I gotta go for audition?! What the....! =='

Too bad, not in the debate thingy since it's on the same days as my drama competition. Damn, they're going KGV!! Me wanna go!! T crush would be there, oh wait no, I guess he'd be coming to the drama competition, to watch them and give support. :D