Day By Day We Are Drifting Apart

Mood: Ouch-ed! :/

So once again, had another argument with Kuga. Great.
She said no one was there for her during Form 1 when she was suffering I don't know what. NO ONE was there! :) She went through much hardships than I did and that I don't know how much she suffered. Well, how does she expect me to know when she didn't even say a thing to me? Asked her that and the best reply, "You didn't ask!" Wow! :D

I used to call her everyday without fail and on every Friday I stayback just to talk to her, did she say a word to me about anything bothering her?! A big fat no! We speak on the phone for hours and she tells me all that she does at school, happy things, and how does she expect me to know? Read her mind?! I'm no Edward Cullen! Is it sensible to ask "Are you sad?" after hearing her speak so happily and all and as far as I know, she ain't the type who gets sad very fast so of course it didn't ring a bell in my head to ask. She just kept saying that I didn't ask! Wow! Tried explaining it to her but after a while just got fed up. Fine, whatever you want. You think it's my fault, ok my fault it is. Done. She didn't make an effort to understand, I didn't find the need to explain further. I'll just shut my mouth and you can have your moment.

How does she expect anyone to be there for her and understand her feelings if she doesn't actually tell what her problem is?! We were just fucking 13!

The only problem of hers during Form that I knew of is that crush thingy. THATS IT!
And the part of remembering her suffering, well how the fuck can we remember something that we don't know of, something that was never part of our memory?! How is that fucking possible?!

I am growing sick and tired of all this nonsense. She is just...errgghhh!
Instead of blaming others, she should learn to stop for a while and think what is the main reason to blame that person, what went wrong instead of just blurting out that the person is guilty without realizing she is the one who made it that way.

No, this time it ain't my fault or anybody else, not even hers but she has got some serious realization to do. Seriously.

Yeah, it sounds like just a small matter but this small things are the ones slowly creating cracks in our friendship and I really hope something happens to fix this shit! Or.....just end up like how Seb and she was. For the best as she said!