Breeze With Love

Mood: Cheerful

Wondering why my mood is always cheerful when all this time I was too busy emo-ing?
Well, life's good! As I said, I found out stuffs! Whee! I had a smile on,whole day long! :)

So how I celebrated my 6th of February?
Decorated my room with daddy! Wheee!
Helped at aunt's shop.
Flirty texting moments with Arvind. Don't question that!
People came talking to me bout my exes. =='
Facebook was really interesting yesterday. Lalala!
I swear I laughed like mad when he asked how I know that Kamz has a thing for him! How can he even think that?! Like seriously?! LMAO!!! That was just shooo funny! XD
Oh and he said he's gonna die in 10 years time because of .......! And he concluded that is the happiest news for me because I hate him. Whaddafuq?! =='
And when he said "I'm forever alone", it reminded of Kamz and me, how we always say forever alone! Lalala!

This time, last year, everything was different. Sparks everywhere.
Things changed, feelings changed and so did I!
I definitely owe him a thank you for bringing the change in me although I swear I feel like killing him at times. He has made me a stronger person. I remember writing this on one of my posts. You know when I read back all those posts, I actually wonder was I that emotional? Was I that hurt? Was I that commited? Cause I am very sure I was numb when I read those. No feelings at all. More to like "Errrr whaattt?!" Wow!

And Oh Lord, that One Guy is back! 18th of February would be the day. I don't know what I am doing. Damn! How can I say YES to him?! Like seriously?! It keeps reminding me of Arvind. How I'm doing him wrong. There was this post on Twitter that he read to me "Girls often go through heartbreak cause they always go for the jerks while the nice guys who are willing to love them right are friend zoned!" Oh well! This One Guy is a definite jerk but he's so niceeeee! Nono I am not crushing on him! But...! Nvm!

Valentine's coming soon and I am hoping real hard Arvind doesn't ask. He haven't spoke about it YET and if he does, I have no idea what to tell him. I have hurt him a lot, still am and still would. I feel really guilty you know but I can't do anything. I am not up to this stuff anymore. He's perfect but I am not. I have fears but it's not that I don't trust him. It's just that I don't know.

Oh well, guess gotta ask my retard brother for help. He would know how to deal with it unless he is gonna support his bestie as usual! -.-