I'm Captivated

Mood: Neutral

Namaste! Hey! Aloha! Konichiwa! Eh eh the last one I'm not sure what it means but it's a greeting anyways! Oh well! Wheee!

Sound hyper?! Neah not really! Just trying to block all the sad moments of my life for a while! I wannna enjoooyyyy!

The title is just random! :P
Oh btw the post that I was supposed to post yesterday, well I'll post it another day, it's sad and I'm not in the mood to be sad! Na ah not even a bit! No place for jealousy also. Currently lying on the bed and wanting to daydream about erm urgh stuffs! Heheeeee!

Oh! Oh! Oh! Yesterday was epic you know! Like epic epic! XD
What happened?! Pn Hasma is no more in our school! Urgh nooo that's not the reason of the epicness, doesn't even has any connection. Ah watever lar!
Craziest assembly session ever! Eh no, it was crazier last time with Charath and all. Hmm kira it was the craziest alone assembly session.

And you stood there in front of me

Just close enough to touch

Close enough to hope you couldn't

See what was I thinking

What I did?! SCREW THE SPEECHES, STARE AT HIM!
Yeah that's the motto, so you kinda get the picture of how it was. I smiled and waved like a retard, poked, smacked, hugged, kicked and slapped him erm somehow without him feeling or noticing?! Lalalala! Basically, I was like on drugs but I wasn't. I was just, I don't know, got Kamalini's sickness, where she ALWAYS picture hugging Nexus mama by just looking at him. Yeah, that's it! I know I sound mad, do you think I care?! Na ah! Doing stuffs that make you look like you're on drugs is awesome. Seriously, try it sometime but don't really go take drugs for that k. The ONLY problem I had while staring at him is HIM! Why can't he just stand still like all the other prefects on the other side were?! Why must he look around?! Ok look around also, why must look to his left?! Keep looking to his right le! Some more, he is supposed to hate looking to the left, I'm there ma! Oh ya, he musn't have noticed, maybe that's why but still, he moves a lot! Almost got busted a few times and aiyo everytime I got the chance to stare for a looongggg time, he'd turn, making me have to look somewhere else in a sudden motion. Very annoying you know. Felt like walking right up to him with all the Longman books, yeah Longman since we're using Nexus books for another idiot, and whack him real hard. Pissing people off ny. Ergh! And he yawns like a rhinoceros lar! His mouth opens so big! Rawr! And he kept rubbing his eyes. Mega sleepyhead le he! I kept having the feeling as though he was glancing sideways to all my nonsense but heh that's so not possible since he doesn't even notice me or look at me which is a good thing cause I get to stare without him noticing and urgh it's a bad thing also, well for me at least. A sad thing. Haiz! What to do! Just gotta be grateful with the current situation! Bwuahahahaah! I even almost threw a lil rock at him but aiyoo raamaaa he ah kept turning. I know lar he so interested to look at all those leng lui chinese girls although he told Kamalini he hates em. -.- Oh wait maybe he was looking at Roy! Hah! Must be it! I know it! Peh! Whatever lar! Mr. Rosli talked to him and he was smiling and I was just there staring and smiling at him like an idiot. Oh and he was busy talking to those Chinese guys from the 1st row and he kept shaking his head and I thought he went crazy ady! But it was cute, err in a odd way. Ohmigod! I swear I've lost my mind. Officially! He looked kinda sad but I know he's not sad! He damn happy one! Dramarama much! =='
Maybe he was just missing Shin Hau. He told Kuga that! And definitely lots more and uh to Kamalini also. Fineee! Go lar talk to my friends and the whole world except me. I don't care lar. Whatever lar you!Ergh! I also don't wanna talk! Why I would wanna talk?! I got no better work is it ah ah ah?!  Haiz! Double sighs! I'll talk to Shin Hau! Honestly, I loveeeeeeeeee talking to Shin Hau. He's much CARING, much NICER, much UNDERSTANDING and uh much PROBLEMATIC too! XD But still, at least he doesn't ignore me like how SOMEONE does! Lalalalallala!

Walking back to class and I was playing the innocent girl role when I passed by him. Eh eh mistake, not playing, I am innocent. Tadaaaaa! I still stared at him from the balcony near my class there. Eh balcony ah that one?! Hmm reminds me of Taylor Swift-Love Story! Kikikikiki! XD

Class was cekap! Layknaath said he'd miss me if I go away! LOL! We were dramarama-ing! He asked me whether I really had to go and help teacher then I just playfully asked him "Why?! You gonna miss me ah?!" with that look and then Bavi was like "Yaaa, he gonna miss you. Kirshna was laughing and then Layknaath said "Ya la!" And Siva gave me the death stare. After that ny we started dramarama-ing!

School ended 1:20! Wheeee! But huh the form 4's were out too?! Awesomeeeeee! I was chit-chatting with Kamz and disturbed her with him. Gah insecurity sucks man! Makes you think and do all sort of wrong stuffs. I was being the normal me, where I'm not bothered about his presence or him but the moment he doesn't notice which is always, I stared at him! Noo not stared lar. Hmm was just LOOKING!

Then my evil boyfriend came. See lar my life, damn epic! I have an evil guy for a boyfriend and a mean guy for a crush. Haiz! And ugh we're not really boyfriend/girlfriend, we just address each other like that to shut everyone's mouth. Ya by now you should know my literal boyfriend is Vinnodth! We walked around the school then Soon Jian joined in, "separating" both of us and telling that Vinnodth might get caught for dating with me and hahahaha our replies were damn cekap! Really like boyfriend and girlfriend but pleaseeeeeeeee no wayyyyyyy! Then Min Yi joined so we said I and Vinnodth date, Min Yi and Soon Jian together! Soon Jian's reaction was so funny! Then we saw Shin Hau walking towards us with his long face and that heavy bag so me and Soon Jian decided to disturb him. We started talking bout my sis-in-law, how Shin Hau's kids are and how he is when she's around and all. Hahhhhh damn niceee! Then he asked me where thaaaatttttt fella was and I told him where I saw him walking, and the next moment, I saw him walking to the canteen but no one else saw. They thought I went mad cause a minute ago I was pointing to the office direction then to the canteen but I was sureeee I saw him! Duh! Follow the leader, ME! XD

Then he came back somehow, I forgot, so he was with Shin Hau, I didn't know what to do also since I'm not used to being around him. He doesn't talk to me, what can I do?! I talk to everyone except him. What?! He thinks I'd bite him ah if he talked?! Urgh! Oh wait, I saying as though lar he wants to talk! Dumb me. So I walked behind them with Vinnodth. I heard him talking, well I didn't concentrate much on what he was talking cause I was busy studying his head and ya hearing to Vinnodth's rant. -.-
Then it was Shin Hau, him and someone else lar, errmmmm Soon Jian I guess. Soon Jian kept asking me questions about Hazel I think, Shin Hau also and whatever I said, HE repeated and ask Shin Hau so basically he was listening to me. Yayyyy! :D But of course I didn't show the appreciation that he actually bothered hearing me talk, I just ignored him. D: Eh but at least not as worst as he ignores me. I know there's a contra of feeling but as a friend?! Hello, I exist! Your notice of my existence would be very much appreciated. And oh it would be better if you just try to care a little. It's ok that you're more interested in talking to my friends and not me but it's so not acceptable if you expect me to know bout your life when you don't tell me anything. Yeah go read your comment again lar! Thank You! It would be so relieving if I could just say that to his face. Kamz gave me the look when I told her he was just being jobless when he repeated what I said. That's a true fact!

Oh and on Sunday "Harini" asked me I still like him or not! My answer was......."who knows?!" and "she" said I was lying! Ergh! Mana ada?! Me telling the truth! Well I have no idea also since certain times I go "I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" then I do stupid stuffs like staring at him and all. Btw neah I don't really hate him, just sometimes I do! I have the rights k! But that one also only for a while, just to shuh away the thoughts of him. Very annoying! -.- So no wrong thoughts of me hating him. Neahhh!