I Barely Survived! ._.

Mood: Neutral

First day of school and I'm already hating it.
When I saw the names on the list all I said in my head "I don't like you!"  for all the names!
It was horrible!
For the first time in my whole entire schooling life, I've ever cried for coming to school.
Since a kid, I always loved going school since my friends were all there but now I have none.
I don't get to spend time with them since they're fucking prefects and my hatred towards prefect is more now!
I hate my class, my typical classmates and my goddamn lame teachers!
I didn't try much to make friends cause I know almost all of them there and they know me too. They were like "Hey ashini!" and I just faked a smile. I don't like them. They're typical people. No, I'm not being racist or anything like that but seriously ergh!
Don't you dare say I'm childish for this cause you have no idea what I'm going through. I'm not used to not having my friends with me. Since year 1 they've always been with me and now not getting to spend time with them, that's a big thing for me. You know the feeling of being left alone, yeah thats it!
At least if one person I'm close to is there with me would be enough. Someone whom I can go to when I need em but nope I've got no one.

Roselyn is with Darshiniy and have you ever hangout with Roselyn?! She's kinda lame and not really they type I like hanging out with. And trust me, having a family member in your class so does not help especially when it's a cousin like Yogan! He's been bugging Fu to change place with me so he can seat with me. Ergh! I'm sitting right in front next to Fu, my ketua kelas and I've gotta teach him about all the ketua stuffs. And wonderfulllll, Thibaa is my penolong! Ergh, mega dislike her since primary. Oh wait, I dislike all of em there!
And it's so unfair you know, Mohaan and Leonard got to go Mawar when they got 150 something all cause they're fucking boys! That's so unfair! They don't even deserve and not saying that I deserve it too but still! I hate Cheah Lef Ngan!

Really couldn't take it ady during recess when Eunice said how awesome her class was. And I was like wth?!? And the moment Kuga asked how was my day ny "Poof!" started crying! I couldn't take it lar! They were all like it'll be fine, just 10 more months to go. Well it's easy to say, I'm the one going through it. And 10 months seems like forever. I barely survived on the first day, how do you expect me to survive for another 300+ days?! Guess I'm gonna cry everyday and remind myself how much I hate this year and all this shit. Study hard?! Heck yeah! Need some tips also. Anyone who's willing to help, pleaseeeeeeeeee do help me! Need it more than anyone else do! So please be a kind soul and help out! I would really appreciate the help! :)

And dayyuummm, most of them knows that I cried! WTH! The form 2's came consoling out nowhere and woalah lots of hugs and all. Then Vinnodth told me not to cry and all and that he felt so sad when he saw me crying. Then Kavitha whacked me for denying that I was crying and then consoled me. I continued crying in class. The moment I see my class and classmates, I just feel so pissed and really have the urge to cry lar. And my teachers?! God, don't ask! They're terrible as well! Class and Science teacher is Pn.Aryati! Well I'm ok with her since last year. Geo is Pn Ruby Tan! Shabaaaa! And BM, my favourite subject and the teacher I got is so shitty I swear! Mr. Lim Thyuon smth! Hate him lar! I swear I had the urge of killing him today. And the rest I don't know yet. The ONLY thing I like is that my PJ is on Wednesdays which means no wearing koko uniform! Awwwwwwwww yeaaaaaahhhhh! I was hoping for it! Wheee! :D

And once again, please I really do need help! :(

Hope and hatred are the only ones that keeps me going for now!