All You're Ever Gonna Be Is Mean!

Mood: Fucking pissed and annoyed and sad!

Great, here goes the goddamn cold war again! It has only been 2-3 days of being nice then now back to the old him. So much for a change and apology! Haiz! Nevermind! Nevermind! No biggie! Its the same old thing that I'm used to. At least now I wouldn't feel like the bad one whenever we chat. Oh wait, it's the cold war, meaning no communication and if there is one also, it would be his mean streak vs my innocence and as usual he'll win! Wonderful! Everything's back to normal! Perfect, just perfect!
Hah Shin Hau, pay up! I knew I couldn't have been wrong! Hah! XD

Hahahahahha now he's sorry again and wouldn't bother me anymore. I know the hidden meaning behind that. It means that I've gotta stop bothering him.

"Oh, I'm so sorry, never knew I was bothering you. Well, I'm glad you said it! Now I know where I exactly stand. How nice of you to be honest for once. I'm so proud of you! No worries, you can have my word. I promise I wouldn't bother you until you yourself tell me to bother you and trust me I'm really good at keeping promises. All I ask is that you be a friend to me not an enemy, quit being mean but don't be too nice either! Oh btw you can't just hurt people all the time and then say "I'm sorry" and expect them to forgive you just like that. That's not how it works. If you make a mistake, have the courage to make it right and apologize with all your heart. Do not throw around the word sorry if you don't mean it. Respect that word. If you can't apologize truly then at least don't fake it and say anything that would hurt the person more. Think before you speak! You're not the one hearing it so you have no idea how it feels like and you would never know cause that's how your mentality works. I know you don't give a damn bout my feelings but you see I do care a lot so I can't take it when you play with em. Not acceptable. I'll just talk to Mr.Teddy here, imagining it's you. Guess I'd be talking to him for a long time since I'm pretty sure you're so not gonna respond anytime soon better yet you're not even gonna talk to me. Thank you so much for you cooperation and being the normal you again! 11:11 made my wish come true!" 

Anyways I've got the same dialogue before, just gotta scroll on my messages but na ah doing that is considered suicidal. Why?! There are over 6000 convos between us and reading each and every one of em would be such a heartbreaker. I rather feel the way I'm feeling now and not make it worse please.

Kamz said I should learn how to control my temper and that I shouldn't have said that. Well it's not my fucking fault! Who asked him to be like that?! I'm not the one who asked him to be rude! I didn't even asked him to apologize. In fact, I didn't even say anything bad to him. All I did was say hi and sorry! Is there any problem with that?!

Haiz, I can't never understand him and they say girls are tough to understand. Screw you people lar. My mood is so ruined! =(

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I hope whoever's reading this enjoyed my scream of frustration as much as I did!