All Alone!

Mood: Frustrated

The jury's out, but my choice is you.

I had one person in mind since a few days ago to ask to well follow me to go watch the movie but after last night/morning whatever, no I don't think so I'm gonna ask. Before this also, I know it'll be a big NO but I thought could just give it shot but never mind it's not happening. Haiz! Now I'm clueless of who to ask.

So I came to the conclusion, let's just forget it. I know no one's gonna come no matter how hard I try to convince them so leave it lar. I'll just ask mommy to get the damn CD!
Yaya you'd think I'm so dumb, could just go alone right?! Well you see I'm always alone, I don't have any siblings to bug me or to talk to although you people with siblings find it annoying but hey at least you have someone and get to spend time with. Me?! I kill time by going online, well thats cause there's people to talk with there at least, play games, watch movies, read storybooks, watch the sky, talk to my stuffs, cycle at my taman, play the guitar,yeah basically I do this over and over and over again. My parents try their best to spend time with me, I can see that but they're usually busy so I don't wanna disturb them.I have all the freedom in the world but I don't know how to spend it or with whom. Kirro says I'm different since most of the kids alone go under serious depression and are always quiet but I talk a lot so it's good. Yaya I don't go under depression but seriously it's effin boring. Who says being the only child is awesome?! I mean yeah it is, you get whatever you want but sometimes when you look back, you'll feel the loneliness. So you see I'm bored alone and thats why I don't wanna go alone cause it'll be the same thing. Get it?! Haiz!

Never mind, not gonna ask anyone anymore. Just gonna wait until someone asks which is not gonna happen either so haiz forget it! This sucks! ><