Am I like the only positive minded person around here or is it just that I don't dare to share my feelings with anyone while everyone else just tells me almost all their probs? Yeah guess that's it. When someone states their problems to me, I don't know how the heck I turn from the crazy hyper fun me to a serious counselor who knows how to advice people. It freaks me out after I actually recover from it. Ergh.
I'm a troubled soul behind the mask of happiness
I advice and cheer people up almost everyday. I realized everyone has problems but they're not afraid to ask for help and then there's ME, who's too afraid to share how I feel with anyone. My friends say I'll feel better if I let it out but I don't know, I just can't. I've tried but the closest I got was way too far from the actual problem. I'm just afraid, what if that person doesn't understand, what if that person decides to double the trouble? Argh I tell people to stay positive but I,myself am totally negative.
I do have friends who say they'd always be there for me but I don't like troubling people by making them listen to my probs when I'm sure they have much better things to do. But sometimes I wonder, do they even care or do they simply say that? I mean I do trust them, a lot, and I love them all so very dearly and I'm really thankful to have friends like them but sometimes insecurity and fear takes over making us think of the impossible.
I have no idea why I felt like writing this but there's something that's been bugging me the whole day, a weird feeling, mixture of emotions but I don't know what or why. Help? Yeah I seriously need it. Am I gonna ask? Definitely not. What if someone provides help? Well, depends on who it is. I just wish, I could actually talk to someone bout my issues.
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