Thoughts Are The Worst Enemies You Could Possibly Have

If you ask me how I'm doing, I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie and say you're not on my mind. 

I'm drowning in my own thoughts of something that I should not think of now. No matter how hard I try to keep myself busy, my mind somehow wanders back to that certain thought. Why? I don't know. It has having some kind of control over me and I am so drawn to it. I like it but at the same time I hate it. I mean it's so stupid, you're doing all fine (really, not fake!) then out of nowhere you suddenly get depressed and start imagining and liking the impossible. 

Seriously, can't believe I'm actually falling for all that crap AGAIN. Gotta remove this lousy thoughts outta my head. It's only been 2 days but I feel dead already so just imagine how it's actually consuming me from the inside. Parasitism! LOL!

Aren't memories supposed to fade away?