Reasons...

Been so emo lately and it all started because I screwed my bm papers. The questions came out of the workbook we have at school. I remember doing all of them but I just didn't remember my answers. I didn't even revise that book cause I forgot I even had it. How great! One of my friend said "Haiz, I didn't do any work from that book lar at least you did." And in my head I was all like "Bitch, I did them all and I couldn't remember. Imagine how I feel!"

And I have no idea what's with me and guys with instruments. I'm just so drawn to them not in a sense of crushing on them or something like that. I just find the them interesting. 

And bout the crushing thing, well there's an exception to it cause I'm unintentionally drawn to this one guy that I'm not supposed to fall for. Why? Cause I know he'd hurt me for sure, I'm 99% positive bout that plus I don't wanna tell him. Not at all unless he changes his mind which is so impossible. 

I'm not supposed to like him, it's extremely stupid and ridiculous. But thank goodness, he's making me dislike him by being super ignorant and rude?! Seriously dude, I've got feelings, you can't just play with it em kay! 

"What goes around comes around"

That's what people say.

So all the pain you caused me,

will come back to you someday.

My mind is just so packed rite now! Maybe I should follow Shin Hau' advice, talk to someone bout how I'm feeling but how? I've never done it before. I prefer keeping it all to myself. Talking bout Shin Hau, it felt so weird when he continuously asked me a question. Like forcing me to tell. I wanted to but it felt wrong. Now that I wanna talk to him, he's nowhere around. Haiz. ):