Mixed Emotions !

WOW! No wonder I was so emo-ish today. I already felt it coming. But I couldn't prepare myself to face the bitter fact. You had to leave me and I understand why. I really do but in return don't expect me to leave you or even forget you. I'll wait for you even if you don't come back and I would never stop loving you. ITS A PROMISE. I'll just stop showing it and expressing it. I don't care if my friends say its a foolish act because all I want is to be with YOU even when you don't. If you could read what is in my heart, you'd be in tears.

I will always love you :)

You make me want to live, you make me want to die, all I can do is sit here and cry, I watch my tears fall to the floor, I don't think I can take it any more.

I feel dead! 

I deserve this pain cause I've never given you anything but pain and trouble. I've never been good enough for anyone. I am just a failure. It hurts so badly but owh hey I am a born actor. I'll just pretend as though it doesn't hurt and put on a fake smile. Its much easier than explaining to others how I really feel. 

I am not perfect!

"There's always a little truth behind every 'just kidding,' a little emotion behind every 'I don't care,' and a little pain behind every 'It's okay.' "

Here I am sitting and crying my heart out (I have no idea why! I should be happy right, that I've finally set you free, knowing the fact that I won't trouble you anymore?!) and at the same time chatting with some peeps who are sympathizing and advicing me. Trying my best to act cool with them, adding lots of :) ! But it just doesn't seem to appear on my face! 

I am a born actor! xD

Had you asking me to tell them a fake fact of why we broke up is far more painful than being told that we had to break up. It totally pissed me off!  

Sorry for making you think that I was worth the while.

So sorry that I loved you (if I didn't,you wouldn't had troubles)

Sorry that I needed you (I am a failure)

Sorry that I held you tight ( But now you're free)