I'm Lost

I'm battling with my own mind. The voices in my head are torturing me but silence doesn't help either.

Sometimes my mind goes dead silent despite the chaos happening around me. Deep down in me, I would be lost in a world of silence that I can't even hear or even concentrate on what the person next to me is saying.

I Don't Know!

 I don't feel anything. Its like for a moment,  I don't have feelings.  More to a puppet than human.  Lifeless.  And when reality hits me, it hits in a way that I lose control of myself.  I just don't know what to feel.  I'm confused. I'm lost. I NEED help but I don't WANT it.

My mind is overflowing. My head feels like bursting!! Frustration is taking control of me.