Frustration!

Depressed, tensed,stressed!!!

Ergh! I seriously couldn't take it anymore and I had no idea why!! I was battling against ME!

I totally lost control of myself! I was no longer ME! I was lost in world filled with depression. YES I was depressed real bad and I had to keep everything to myself! It made things even worst!!

I was literally dead without any cause!

I was having a really good day but then everything turned to be a horrible nightmare!! I was silently freaking out! Felt like screaming but couldn't. Not even a single teardrop fell!!

I was filled with anger and rage but I didn't know why! During dinner, I finally snapped! I started cursing myself without any reasons to! Everyone stared at me but I wasn't in the condition to explain. Luckily he was there to save me!

All I needed was to be alone! Angrily excused myself and went out in the dark for a short walk.

Alone...yeah! All I needed!

It was relieving. The cold breeze,the dark sky and the trees made me calm down. And for the first time,I couldn't think. My mind was empty! Just what I wanted!

There's always sunshine behind that rain

I settled down under a tree and I felt my cheeks wet. Finally, I cried after going through a really tough time! The battle against me was over! And I felt a whole lot better! I was free from being tied to my own emotions!

Free!

 

Hope so!

 But the questions are, why did I get angry at the first place when there was nothing to be angry at? Why was I depressed? How could a perfect day turned into a disaster?