Complications

A month ago, perfect happiness was mine. And now its been a week since I lost myself! Before we used to chat and now all I could do is just stare at your name and wonder could it be the same again?

I am trying my best to ignore you but I HAVE to, don't I? That's what you want right?! Want me to not exist in your life for some time!?! But having you ignore me is hard to accept. Ya I know I'm being selfish. I am sorry. 

Not knowing how you feel creates fear in my mind. The fear of loosing you.
You want to forget me for some time right? Go on but don't completely forget me that you wouldn't want to come back because I am still here waiting for you.

Do you?

I may look calm on the outside but I have so many things running through my mind.

 "Is he annoyed by my presence?"

 "Dang! Can I look at him?"

 "He's there! He's there! Don't look at him. Look down or somewhere else!"

 "OMG! I just passed by him! I shouldn't have! Great! Now he's surely mad!"

And all these leads to frustration. It makes me hate myself. I used to be really happy. Never knew what frustration was all about. I used to love myself to the maxx.