I love the pasar malam peeps! They're just too nice! I walked around like an innocent little girl,with a smile on my face,holding my mummy's hand.

I couldn't resist myself from touching all the goods on each stall we went. I gave all of em' the poke! And the shopkeepers thought I was a retard...a special child.

So they smiled at my mummy and me and some gave the pathetic look! I was totally like a kid at that moment. It feels really stupid though thinking back!

Silent Pain

It really hurts to hide all my feelings but it's just too hard for me to share it with anyone. I don't know who and what to believe. Time and people had hurt me in such a way that 'TRUST' is just another word I learned to say. Meaningless.

They say "It's not good to keep your feelings to yourself. You'll feel better if you share it with someone." Well for me, I rather DIE than share my feelings with the world.

It kills when someone whom I truly love and trust points out this weakness to me. I try to keep myself strong enough so that they don't realize I am hurt.

CRYING IS HEALTHY

But tears is something I can't control. It starts dropping all by itself no matter how hard I try to stop it. It seems like the best way to free myself from the pain. At least it's better than explaining how I feel. :)