Dont's In A Relationship

Dear people who are in a relationship, STOP. SCREWING. UP.
Okay, certain things you cannot avoid, I agree but certain things you can avoid from happening.

You can't have a relationship without any fights but you can make your relationship worth the fight.

Stop finding for problems in your relationship or your partner. I mean, you got together after knowing and accepting them as who they are, right, with their flaws and imperfections then what is the point of keep finding faults? If it is to make you look better than them, it would be the most foolish thing you could possibly do. Don't try to make your girlfriend jealous. Make others jealous of them. Most importantly, please never treat your girlfriend like crap. Don't make them feel anything less than the best. Don't ignore them in front of your so called friends just to pretend that you're cool. Man up and behave like a dude with balls. You're the one dating her NOT those so called friends of yours so why bother of what they say? Real friends would support you unless you're making a big mistake. And oh, never ignore your friends for your girlfriend or boyfriend. They were there for you before he/she was so stick with them cause this could also create problems in your relationship.
 E.g. "I don't think I am spending much time with my friends these couple of months. I've been leaving them to be with you. It's ruining my friendship with them. Let's break up. :D " See? 
Well at least that has a reason why they were gonna break up. Never ever leave your girlfriend without telling her the reason even if it's gonna hurt and by telling her truth, you'd be doing her a great favour cause the least she would do is cry for some time and then get over it instead of continuously wondering what wrong she has done and sacrifice her sleep every night thinking and crying. 

And girls, stop being over protective. Give him some space. Trust is important in every relationship and if you don't trust your boyfriend, well you might as well just give up cause you're just gonna make lives miserable for the both of you. The poor guy couldn't have fun and you would just be plain restless and then things would get so messed up and in the end, you'd be called a bitch. 

Girls are called bitch for everything, man. A girl gives her opinion. "Man, she's such a bitch."
A girl still talks and treats the guy who likes her, as a friend. 'Forget her cha, she's a bitch!" 
A girl has a boyfriend and a guy best friend. "Look at her, bitching around." 
A girl ignores you. "Bitch lah she!" 
Dear certain guys, I don't think you know the meaning of bitch. It means a female dog and the one that fucks more than one person. So, in order to actually know and call her a bitch, you must be a dog and a dog you are. Congrats. (:

Because Not Knowing Hurts

He smiles, and his eyes sparkle furiously. She looks so beautiful, naturally, her smile makes her whole face light up and shine. He aches for her to look up, look over; catch his eye. But their darting glances are shy, narrow paths that miss each other despite their souls aching for contact.
She watches him carefully, furrowed brow, hurried pen, -he stops.
She sees the calmness in his face, he looks up; hopeful eyes. She hurriedly looks away, down, at her book. Their gazes meet for a split second then retract, hide. 

So cried yesterday after quite some time but the feeling was just as fresh. What triggered it? Adeline's blog post. Promises. It was like my life story told, a part of it. Her experience brought back a rush of memories. Happy memories. The Golden Memories, they say. The ones that hurt a lot to think back about. I wonder if he even remembers them. 

Last night I realized there was so much I was hiding from myself. All those sadness and crushed feeling just came rushing to the surface drowning the person I tried to be, those empty promises I made to myself. I have apologised to God countless of times and still am for all those negative thoughts I had, for the horrible things I've said to him or about him, for being like this. 

Temper. Getting me nowhere since the very beginning. When he told me that I didn't need to know the reason why he left me in the first place was just I don't know, hurtful? I was a little angry because I have every right to know and no he does not have the right to keep it from me. No! No! No! 1 year 3 months is no short period. I admit, there was a part of me who just wanted to respond "Okay. That thing doesn't matter." but if I did, I would have only been lying to myself because it always matters when you're left without being told the reason why. Abandoned just like that. No small thing. It makes you wonder all the time of what you did wrong, fills up your mind with all the unworthy thoughts and there you are trying to pick up the broken pieces. 

Convo with Kuga, earlier today at her house.

"What if he has a good reason behind it?"

"What if he really is gonna die?"

"Everybody would die someday"

"What if he dies now? In 1-2 years?"

"He could be just lying"

"No one lies about the same thing again and again."

"He is trying to save you. An early step. Imagine if he dies when you guys are together."

"I wouldn't care."

"Ya dei, ya. He broke your heart itself you're already like this. If he dies, pochi. You'd be a gone case." 

 "He hates me. He LIKED me and now everything is screwed."

"He still likes you lah."

 As much as I wanna believe all that she has said, I just can't. 

 Maybe I'm a little stupid and a little scared. Or maybe I'm just plain sad.

Adeline's blog post - Click to open.

First, you think the worst is a broken heart

What's gonna kill you is the second part

And the third, is when your splits down the middle

And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself

Fifth, you see them out with someone else

And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little. 

Falling

Have you ever met someone who surprised you? Like, you meet this person, and at first you hardly pay attention to them. You may not be attracted to this person, but as you get to know them, you notice yourself falling. This person who was once nothing to you has become everything. All of a sudden, they're the most beautiful person you've ever met. It's just funny looking back. You never saw it coming. It just kind of happened.

:)

Holla! I am back! (:
Been away for too long.

Happy Diwali? Hehe.
Diwali was nice. Could have been better.
Was away at Puchong for 3 days. Meep!
Arvind and brotherrrrr! They were both sick. :(
Had dinner at one beautiful house. It was so elegant!
Got proposed. Like dahell?!!! Imagine getting a text like that while sitting in between your protective brother and another guy who likes you. Scary shiat!
My answer? Hell to the no! Okay, I did not exactly say that to him. I was much nicer. Practical even. Thank God he was understanding. Did not ask me why and all like other typical guys. Some guys, I tell you. ==''
Had my fringe cut! I am now a mushroom head! Meep. :D
Oh and I am currently addicted to the word Meep, I don't know why and how.

Puvee's Deepavali dinner today! It was good. "Sick" dude and my periya anna having a fight over something so silly, I feel like slapping them. DON'T. KILL. THE. MOOD. IDIOTS.

Returned Just To Go Away Again?

Ah, Blogger, long time no seeeeeeee. :P
Guess it has been a good thing.
Blogger: Been ruining my life ever since I joined. :/

Now I realize how stupid I've been. I mean, really stupid.

28 Days

Mood: Neutral

Walao, its been ages since I blogged. .___.
28 days to be exact and I still have pageviews? Thats super weird. o.O

Hows life? Still the same of course. Okay maybe slightly improved.
Trials in a weeks time and it's gonna be the 6th of August soon. :(

It's A New Dawn

Dear Talos, may the month of Sun's Height bring lesser crap into my life.

Mood: Neutral

Back after a week. Boo yeah! XD
A crappy week as usual.
Nothing special happened.
Bet he wants to kill me for talking to Shin Hau about their differences lately. Pffttt. Shin Hau started the topic k, weird I know, but he really did. So I continued lo.

Went to Little Flower Learning Centre yesterday. It was a delightful experience. God bless those kids.
Being with them made me realize how grateful I must be to be a proud Malaysian. Being a refugee ain't fun at all. I miss Ling Har, Peter, David and Lien. My awesome group members. A tiny crush on Ling Har, he's too adorable but gah he's only 13. :(

The screw that shit called love, character of Ashi is back. So pfft, no more crying over assholes. Self control activated.
More to like swearing and burning stuffs.
Oh yeah, I got over my fear of lighting a matchstick. Last Saturday. I wrote his name and burnt it. Buahahaahhahaa. It didn't burn fully, a fraction of his name is still visible.